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Inspired by song diarists like David Andrew Strackany (aka PALEO), I endeavor to write, record and upload a song a day for 365 days. visit my blog here:http://bhagiti.blogspot.com/



Published: Tue, 14 Mar 2017 23:44:30 +0000

 



New Digs

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 15:29:27 +0000

Well folks, I’ve met the storage capacity maximum for this site (and just at the halfway point)! The saga continues to its completion at http://songjournal2.podomatic.com/ so please take a minute to update your bookmarks and subscriptions. The first entry at the new location will be Tuesday, Oct 23 and this site will remain up as an archive of the project to this point. My deepest thanks for everyone who’s been following along and for those curious enough to drop in. See you on the other side! Eric


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#186 no salvation premium

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 10:17:23 +0000

i’ll live a month of sundays all in one day if only i could make them them go away the tea kettle mousetrap reflection tool doesn’t work as planned and the sun sets as quickly as it rises no holy ghost building no pilgrim stranger or salvation premium the band doesn’t even attempt to tune before they begin the sad waltz for monday nor do i dance no holy ghost building no pilgrim stranger or salvation premium bhagiti 10.22.07 perrysburg, oh


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#185 face up

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 13:31:58 +0000

goodbyes and leavings beginnings middles and ends there’s no place to stay no place to stay the machine moves with or without me sometimes i’m on sometimes i want off a puzzle piece turned upside down doesn’t fit unless the rest of the world is too if the world is upside down then i’m face up bhagiti 10.21.07 perrysburg, oh


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#184 when we crossed the divide (together)

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 12:37:23 +0000

wide open spaces enclosed in a moment all that meant anything surrounded by so much detail and pointlessness was you and then we crossed the divide together it was the only thing that mattered not the elevator bread nor the hopeless microfine lines they drew when we crossed the divide together bhagiti 10.20.07 perrysburg, oh


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#183 another old house

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 10:20:30 +0000

it was all desks and beds dark from the lamps and faulty wiring and doors leading nowhere and natalie disappeared into the ductwork of a new old house we never knew another old house devours us another old house swallows us whole so i bought a tiny japanese man he was on the lam to find her he disappeared in there too another old house devours us another old house swallows us whole bhagiti 10.19.07 perrysburg, oh


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#182 take a picture

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 12:00:04 +0000

take a picture it lasts longer it’s a thousand misunderstood words but it holds no candle to a thousand incarnations of a rose take your comic book x-ray specs and tell me can you see my secret desire my longest day my dream of the eternal return or just the pixel myth of the last day take a picture it lasts longer take a picture it lasts longer bhagiti 10.18.07 perrysburg, oh


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#181 choosing's a game

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 11:28:03 +0000

there are roads and there are roads no matter which ones you take you always end up in the same place we can run headlong into heather birds and bees escaping into dry leaves clinging to sweaters all the same choosing’s a game win or lose choosing’s a game win or lose spin the big wheel and watch yourself roll off the tracks bells and whistles look best with party hats and shame choosing’s a game win or lose choosing’s a game win or lose bhagiti 10.17.07 perrysburg, oh


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#180 you first or me

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 11:26:21 +0000

in these empty passenger cars with no engine to pull them we can live out here in the cold pile everything around us and make a go we’ll pretend to be buried alive though this coffin is too small and whoever digs us up will be our forever and in the cold we’ll make a go will it be you first or me another blanket please will it be you first or me another blanket please and when they come looking for us i’ll try hard not to laugh as they poke their way through blankets and phony coffins looking for their lo and behold will it be you first or me another blanket please will it be you first or me another blanket please bhagiti 10.16.07 perrysburg, oh


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#179 i'm ok

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 11:28:30 +0000

i'm ok bhagiti 10.15.07 perrysburg, oh


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#178 you got to look up to see what's comin' down

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 13:01:06 +0000

the leaves know nothing of a mile the dirt underneath can’t see the stars sometimes you have to be dead before you can be born again frost on the pumpkin says it’s time ice and mist leaks from the sky sometimes you have to be dead before you can be born again at the gate what’s your name i said what’s your name (nobody) sometimes you have to be dead before you can be born again bhagit 10.14.07 perrysburg, oh


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#177 time is longer than rope

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 12:38:49 +0000

we knew the mask you wore to hide from yourself didn’t cover the words you tore up and swept under the rug words piled high into a balcony from which lovers spurned or otherwise fling themselves into senselessness you can get yourself some time or a rope but time is longer than rope and we all knew the mask was better than the cranberries and salamanders you were so close to becoming you can get yourself some time or a rope but time is longer than rope bhagiti 10.13.07 perrysburg, oh


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#176 oars in our fishbaskets

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 11:22:46 +0000

it was always the thinnest of thin ice spiderwebbing through your veins like lost highways no longer making the trip home afraid of what you thought you’d find there and at camp like canoes we slept overturned our oars in our fishbaskets afraid to laugh and you never did and i knew you couldn’t and that you didn’t care for the moon and neither could i but i did and neither could i but i did and later in january when the ground was as cold as you could take it you pulled me outside and pulled everything off and didn’t shiver one bit and forced yourself to smile but you couldn’t make it last and neither could i but i did and neither could i but i did and i knew you wouldn’t have it any other way and i knew you wouldn’t have it any other way any other way any other way bhagiti 10.12.07 perrysburg, oh


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#175 pull the plug

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 11:32:51 +0000

sleep comes always just before the alarm through the night trains scream and i want them to take me away or run me over the cold through the window is finally real this time and the bed that wouldn’t let me sleep now won’t let me go but i do when does it all stop when will it be quiet again pull the plug pull the plug i will daydream my return in blankets sitting in the middle of the autumn woods covered in leaves and twigs warm and content when does it all stop when will it be quiet again pull the plug pull the plug bhagiti 10.11.07 perrysburg, oh


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#174 leave it to the birds (i dream of an airplane crash)

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 11:32:09 +0000

the high altitude jet plane reimagining cumulous with straightedge vapor trails is a phantom whose presence is unclear i suppose that everyone who has fallen to earth regretted in an instant believing in a phantom whose presence is unclear leave it to the birds leave it to the birds i’m happy sticking to the ground firmly attached by forces beyond my control believing in a phantom whose power is clear leave it to the birds leave it to the birds bhagiti 10.10.07 perrysburg


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#173 the penny that refuses to reveal its other side is a hidden notebook

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 11:40:10 +0000

gliding gliding hypnotized penny for your thoughts how much to keep them to yourself make me guess what broken bread can’t be fixed again what fish eaten can’t swim again what wine can’t return to the vine meanwhile night peeks through blinds and my light sneaks back though neither have eyes needing blinding instead a threshold between life and living or knowing and not gliding gliding hypnotized america a main drag that isn’t a cowboy that’s neither a continental divide that doesn’t a jacket that smells of leaves and leaving and in the breastpocket a notebook that reads itself bhagiti 10.9.07 perrysburg, oh


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#172 oh why ohio

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 11:30:46 +0000

ohio stretches like a lie toward the plains and promises of the west to the sleepy south below the cool green east and the endless forests of the north roads lead in or away roads lead in or away ohio is a heart that no longer beats kept alive by trains pumping its crisscrossing veins and sad eyed summer slaves to the catsup trade roads lead in or away roads lead in or away ohio dead or dying no arrow filled sebastian merely an unavoidable swamp that continuously tries to refill itself with the muck long removed roads lead in or away roads lead in or away bhagiti 10.8.07 perrysburg, oh


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#171 between crows and grapes

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 12:51:11 +0000

the sky is as black as a crow and as beautiful my belly full of grapes makes no complaint and the cool humidity of morning struggles between the death of summer and the birth of death it caresses me seduces me kisses me licking my face as if to say take me now for tomorrow we are gone bhagiti 10.7.07 perrysburg, oh


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#170 and in a field of aging heather a dream of the future fell like ballast tossed from a failing balloon

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 13:17:43 +0000

i stand in the middle of ten thousand streets all at once and everywhere they lead is nowhere each screaming in concrete seducing with slick rainsoaked curves but each a dead end none to salvation nor even to acceptable ruin ten thousand streets all at once everywhere a spiderweb traffic jam of industrial strength chaos linear asphalt beauty a din of scrape and roar all leading to madness madness of desire madness of restlessness madness of choice madness of singularity madness of loss madness of responsibility madness of hope madness of hopelessness bhagiti 10.6.07 perrysburg, oh


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#169 which side are you on

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 14:37:07 +0000

morning makes no compromises it reveals to us the actions of the night and hides the moon in its light everything before is meaningless everything before is everything which side are you on we are not morning like prospectors without pans we wade in murky water that hides untold riches everything before is meaningless everything before is everything which side are you on tripping over pebbles and god we stumble toward nothing when everything is directly below everything before is meaningless everything before is everything which side are you on bhagiti 10.5.07 perrysburg, oh


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#168 re-parting

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 13:23:06 +0000

i went to the station no suitcase in my hand and there an old man you leavin or stayin i’m re-parting remaining and departing at the same time that is i’m here but never here so there i sat on the platform watching the trains come and go people’s faces staring out at other possible realities each better than their own that is they’re here but never here bhagiti 10.4.07 perryburg, oh


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#167 once again i dream (of the round piano)

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 11:36:14 +0000

outside now we are all seated around a large round piano we each have the notes that are ours we begin playing each after the other and it is strange beautiful music before it begins to rain out of the night endlessly twisting i lay dreaming the piano fills with water soon goldfish appear flickering in the dark water born from the music jay closes the lid and folds everything up until it’s gone water fish and all before it stops raining out of the night endlessly twisting i lay dreaming bhagiti 10.3.07 perrysburg, oh


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#166 my barn is full of stars

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 11:38:18 +0000

my barn is full of stars pitched up high with blankets of blue and green glowing strange sequins and when it’s cold i see my breath and in the breath-dust are spelled out the words i can’t seem to say letters spill out like a vaporized soup backlit by the barn-glow that the neighbors know isn’t quite right but later at night i return to the blue blankets awash in the radiance of my celestial secrets each within five points of right removed from their seas of night there with me burning into me dreams of olden days and days yet still to be seen the light is bright and i have lost sight of all that isn’t night and the pretend joy of all i ever wanted to be and see is there forever shielded by universal dreams never meant to be or be seen by the likes of me and here everything is everything seen and unseen bhagiti 10.2.07 perrysburg, oh


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#165 harvest time

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 11:33:01 +0000

hey now stop cowering under barley rows and hiding in the rye no escaping into wheat and corn leave that for the birds the mind’s pastures harvested soon will sleep for the moon will too plump again for the last time and leave you to the birds as the husks dry the worm reminds that fruit is sweetest before it dies as kids my brother and i ran barefoot through the corn unafraid of what the crow had known and left us to the birds hey now stop cowering under barley rows and hiding in the rye no escaping into wheat and corn leave that for the birds as the husks dry the worm reminds that fruit is sweetest before it dies bhagiti 10.1.07 perrysburg, oh


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#164 what way what way (what would penelope wait)

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 13:21:34 +0000

got to get this all together and reconcile the pines with the silver the damp with the wet and the sand with the secrets of the soul in a st. vitus dance like a bonfire taunting all the ghosts of the forest while the flames flicker and the stars shimmer before turning away what way what way what penelope would wait and for how long the birds at the window ruffle their sad feathers waiting for seeds to grow more flittering bellies to rule the trees and windowsills the compass won’t stop spinning nothing looks the same anymore the moon never stops laughing and paper boats will only get you so far what way what way what penelope would wait and for how long bhagiti 9.30. 07 perrysburg, oh


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#163 somewhere in between

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 13:41:51 +0000

i am not one to take to the road i listen to the trees and stare at the moon wondering how far is far it rains in spirals inside my head the hissing always in my ears reminding me to keep the windows open let it in let it out let it in let it out as leaves leap like lovers and fools and night regains control over the glass i will take it head-on the fish eagle cannot swim nor can the flying fish fly but we all know truth is somewhere in between let it in let it out let it in let it out bhagiti 9.29.07 perrysburg, oh


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#162 tie a bell around your neck

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 11:25:49 +0000

what’s your favorite anything does it have to do with dime turn decisions or the way telephones make the tormenting stop once in a minute i dreamt every dream i ever had vivid as life and i drank them in cool and slow so they wouldn’t stop tie a bell around your neck let everybody know you’re there let’s erase constellations and make ‘em up new this light is long dead before we were born our light soon will sometime stop like some crazy lunatic who would shoot me just to see me try there has got to be a better way to make it stop tie a bell around your neck let everybody know you’re there bhagiti 9.28.07 perrysburg, oh


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#161 dustspeck pennies

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 11:25:24 +0000

what dustspeck floating by teeming with tiny mystery was your disappearing act where did everyone go where did everyone go your headsup penny was one of the best stuck full of wisdom and lucky magic i know you know I know i know you know I know hope hangs like a wish on a string under daisies ripe with pollen and tears listen, i can’t look away listen, i can’t look away bhagiti 9.27.07 perrysburg, oh


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#160 time is time (make up your mind make up your mind)

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 11:32:54 +0000

the tree outside squeaking heavy with tiny hollow-boned birds weightless brown puffs of seeded white bellies behind them the dusky sky before the curtain is pulled back illuminating the deception of old gods constellations pinprick white lights waiting for some kid to shoot ‘em out you know how it goes your petals drop though your feet are deep in the dirt like daisies pushing up through the rainy day sidewalk in kid’s colored chalk the lobster sings when he hits the pan he takes it like a man the cook faces the music as the glass pinches the sand time is time make up your mind time is time make up your mind when it gets down to it no matter how many times venus crosses the sky our eyes refuse to believe she’s anything but a star lost missing her arms a cool pale violet diamond hung ‘round the neck of a moon she can’t embrace what a waste all the world’s lovers can’t escape the treason of dreams in the great lottery we’ve won a prize we all die but we get a little slice of heavenly pie cut six-point-five billion times all in one bite and you smile then forever in your stomach it glows to remind you that time won’t bind you and the three vultures still eye you with delicious suspicions that there is time is time make up your mind time is time make up your mind bhagiti 9.26.07 perrysburg, oh


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#159 staring back at me like a religion of photographs

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 11:39:57 +0000

i have bathed in the stream of consciousness under the featherbed pillows of reason and rhyme the dust under boxcars makes me sad like how the purple summer sun sometimes seems all alone it all means something doesn’t it it’s all nothing isn’t it staring back at me like a religion of photographs torn from a stranger’s journal or breastpocket an alchemist’s crucible the gloomy vessel of powdery failed attempts at dreaming in gold it all means something doesn’t it it’s all nothing isn’t it pound grommets into anvils of soap and birdfeathers string them with gossamer thread garments of hope it all means something doesn’t it it’s all nothing isn’t it bhagiti 9.25.07 perrysburg, oh


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#158 my slow boat has just come in (this must be the place)

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 11:10:20 +0000

what four questions would i ask that i haven’t asked already i know the answers won’t come it’s ok the barn doors are open and the horses are long gone they won’t return again it’s ok this must be the place this must be the place my slow boat to china has just come in what i wouldn’t give i long to see japan i dream of underwater seaweed it’s ok this must be the place this must be the place my slow boat to china has just come in bhagiti 9.24.07 perrysburg, oh


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#157 pull the blinds

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 12:43:55 +0000

time winds through the by and by one moment is all it takes and running through it a single shiny thread of liquid silver but that’s not what the thief wants the root of the root is obscure pull the blinds pull the blinds the worm knows both the apple and the heart both sweet with desire inside a forest silence and flight fight for impossibility alone pull the blinds pull the blinds bhagiti 9.23.07 perrysburg, oh


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#156 it will have to do

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 13:08:02 +0000

a piano wrapped around a room it will only play one tune it will have to do it will have to do a birdcage big enough for two but mine only knows one tune it will have to do it will have to do if there was only one song would it need to be sung would we secretly dream up the rest and keep them hidden inside like sidewalk pennies and good luck charms one year wrapped around me like a shroud tune after tune it will have to do it will have to do bhagiti 9.22.07 perrysburgh, oh


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#155 i'm going to have my way with you (song to the muse)

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 11:37:40 +0000

i’m going to press this song up against the wall and in no uncertain terms i’m going to have my way with you i’ve had it with you let me love you stop resisting you know we’re halfway through i’m going to have my way with you let me take you to evergreen pines trampled leaves under toe tucked inside wool blankets under snow or slip past the undersea green weeds i don’t ask for much in return just give up your silver threaded pearls of impulse i’m going to have my way with you bhagiti 9.21.2007 perrysburg, oh


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#154 reach inside and touch the dust of dreams

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 11:30:19 +0000

yesterday i saw a leaf leap from a tree it just let go an arc of awkward freedom and instead of falling it lifted up and out of sight stand on a chair lift your hands high it is never enough like slipping through pale mist the kiss of cold against skin every button undone down to the last one down down down down when you’re ready to leap let go crop circle geometry will be your guide you will glide awkwardly lifted up and out of sight stand on a chair lift your hands high it is never enough what mystery still remains what survives the reigns the harnessed desire that strains to reach inside and touch the dust of dreams stand on a chair lift your hands high it is never enough bhagiti 9.20.07 perrysburg, oh


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#153 i have forgotten why - tell me again

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 11:31:27 +0000

i have forgotten why tell me again am i pushing this along or am i being dragged limply behind sometimes i want to pretend each day doesn’t matter can the angel-fueled furnace churning the words burning in turns bake my blackbird pie will the rope that keeps me tied to the back of this bakery delivery truck cease to exist besides what’s so easy about sugar fruit flour and heat bhagiti 9.19.07 perrysburg, oh


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#152 you turn your leaves and greet the trees on hands and knees and wonder what kind of fool am i

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 11:27:51 +0000

why is it like this why does the day kiss the light from satellites above what sleepybug journeyed eye can compromise what i have known all along that there is nothing but a heatseeking heart beating deep inside of me why can’t i hide this why do the birds miss the sigh from my eyes above what tatertot tasted kiss do i miss the most like the pale ghost who hangs from my bedpost a sad memory of how everything used to be you turn your leaves and greet the trees on hands and knees and wonder what kind of fool am i and wonder what kind of fool am i like riding a bicycle full speed into snowflakes obliterating across our faces geometric teary diamonds dissolving against the heat of our cheeks you turn your leaves and greet the trees on hands and knees and wonder what kind of fool am i and wonder what kind of fool am i and wonder what kind of fool am i bhagiti 9.18.07 perrysburg, oh


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#151 weightless resistance

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 11:20:34 +0000

sometimes i float sometimes i sink in between there is weightlessness i am heavy with weightlessness it presses down on me like a hawk before the kill the moon begins to swell for the sixth time and the hawk clears the yard before weightless resistance lifts itself skyward i will turn a corner i will turn a corner bhagiti 9.20.07 perrysburg, oh


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#150 requiem for an alley cat

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 14:34:32 +0000

agile grace under four-corner street lamp humming light orange mystery cool in the chaos of shouts squealling tires in the din you ruled from the alley i will look for you always and again otherwise this city’s already dead and then i lost you under the wheels they destroyed your ginger symmetry sometimes the only thing that matters is what we will never understand i will look for you always and again otherwise this city’s already dead bhagiti 9.16.07 perrysburg, oh


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#149 recovering the acorn

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 13:48:04 +0000

i look over the edge and they’re all gone not a single scrap of paper to be seen eaten buried or retrieved this transmission is slowly weakening nothing’s lost that can be found everything is someplace like a squirrel who spends his life searching to find nothing’s lost nothing’s lost bhagiti 9.15.07 perrysburg, oh


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#148 yes i said yes tonight

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 11:33:19 +0000

i get so tired sometimes i want to disappear into it lose myself wrapped in the arms of morpheus forever tonight yes i said yes tonight i will give in very soon i will slip past the gate without fail tonight yes i said yes tonight bhagiti 9.14.07 perrysburg, oh


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#147 the submission of night

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 11:59:18 +0000

the blankets wouldn’t release me as i lay trying to go back to where i was minutes ago with the cold from the open window working its way into my failed attempt at dream recovery morning is a cruel killer of warm blanketed bliss a destroyer of dreams evaporating the gentle black of night and pressing the moon into submission night keeps its greatest secret during the day in hiding from the accusations of the sun bhagiti 9.13.07 perrysburg, oh


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# 146 in a glass house you clicked your rings

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 11:34:20 +0000

a round house in the middle of the old neighborhood and there i snapped music around my head before leaving you lived in a glass cube high in the trees hidden from others though exposed to me and to you i did climb always and again the same is never the same is never the same again and after we climbed out onto a limb dangling our feet over the black water underneath the moon and laughed always and again the same is never the same is never the same again bhagiti 9.12.07 perrysburg, oh


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#145 i take you up in my arms but nothing is there, nothing is there

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 11:34:45 +0000

i awoke to the crispy cool of autumn in the air today it’s chill embraced me with its leaf mold caress as i lay sleeping dreaming a kiss fall the reverse resurrection i love you and your harvest moons and your chilly clarity but you are no lover you take but cannot ever give i will be here same time next year i will be here every day i will slip into you surrounded by increasing night and breathe deep your cool before we part again never having shared a single secret i will be here same time next year i will be here bhagiti 9.11.07 perrysburg, oh


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#144 tell me something, anything

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 11:42:51 +0000

peas in a pod what does it all mean the vines are long but have surely reached something tell me something anything tell me something anything last night a kitchen full of dying birds in cages we healed them with sunflower seeds tell me something anything tell me something anything everything quiet speaks again but we don’t always hear it doesn’t mean we’re not listening tell me something anything tell me something anything bhagiti 9.10.7 perrysburg, oh


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#143 why water why

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 12:23:40 +0000

my shoes in a dream and my feet in them in awful brackish water where i found indian drums and later a man tried to kill me for them i woke up again to rain already feeling the wet seeping in to my bones wondering what water means to me and if it figures in my death why water why do i never seem to escape love and death within your cool green and blue brine at once i breathe then die bhagiti 9.9.07 perrysburg, oh


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#142 the dilemma of morning

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 12:22:26 +0000

nothing beats rain in the morning before the sun and bird worms here the bed a paradise of non-escape a warm refuge in diaphanous gossamer at one with lingering half dreams and the hissing against the leaves outside the moon that tormented me last week is gone now and the sky through my window drips dark as i make my way out of night to fight off the day bhagiti 9.8.07 perrysburg, oh


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#141 making the morning snowglobe cry

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 11:30:27 +0000

no full range bleary eyed evening moon hypnosis can make the morning snowglobe cry daybreak dreams everlast the longest haunting the rest of the day for two weeks here i’ve lingered each of these a cipher shouts and kissing nowhere running underwater flying clamshell mystery stuck between night and day a limbo of consciousness i can’t escape for two weeks here i’ve lingered each of these a cipher bhagiti 9.7.07 perrysburg, oh


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#140 a little less resistance

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 11:30:39 +0000

i want to float i want gravity to lose its hold on me just a little i want to move with a little less resistance i used to dream i was invisible and that i could fly i would disappear and float away over the playground it sounds simple but there’s no comprehending this now invisibility is an impossibility but there’s still hope for light between the earth and the bottom of my feet it sounds simple but there’s no comprehending this bhagiti 9.6.07 perrysburg, oh


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#139 some people have all the luck

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 11:29:34 +0000

i once knew this girl and rain poured from her fingers but the only parade she ever touched was her own once i squeezed my finger to see if the water would come and just as i was about to stop i could only raise a drop some people have all the luck some people have all the luck when counting stones or stars you need to go by thirteens and sevens the logic of happiness has nothing to do with elevens the bridges crossed and powders lost are not for coming and going but for dandelions growing and fingers that weep some people have all the luck some people have all the luck bhagiti 9.5.07 perrysburg, oh


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#138 my relationship with the moon is, shall we say, complicated

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 11:35:22 +0000

last night the moon waning from behind dappled backlit clouds directed my dreaming even so cruel arid moon i’ll still love you there i witnessed three deaths including my own each still heavy within me i am shaken even so cruel arid moon i’ll still love you tonight i will pull the curtains in tight to keep that light from seeping into my senseless sleeping even so cruel arid moon i’ll still love you bhagiti 9.4.07 perrysburg, oh


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#137 post-it notes and listlessness

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 12:56:17 +0000

all the notes to myself the to-do’s and to-be’s the unpurchased groceries reminders and crazy ideas have all fallen from a bulletin board in limbo i tried to put it all back together but all i got was a paper version of me an effigy full of crazy ideas and unpurchased groceries lying legs akimbo life is a day job full of unheeded to-be’s and listless schemes and then we realize everything falls apart bhagiti 9.3.07 perrysburg, oh


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#136 seven stones

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 13:09:07 +0000

these stones have fallen from those stars and these stones here have fallen from my ears last night at dusk the sun whispered to the moon it’s going to happen soon you’ll see come closer to me like the ocean i have become so obsessed with the pace of the day that i have forgotten who i am bhagiti 9.2.07 perrysburg, oh


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#135 freeing themselves from the rivulets and tributaries of the mind, a school of fish make their way into my secret sargasso

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 14:19:22 +0000

there is a determined hopping fish deep inside me flopping his way to the pool of green great escape in my heart it is where he meets eternity no one to rain on his plans he speeds to his school of wisdoms in session everywhere inside me and like in that dream i am late for class there is no here beyond there there is no here beyond there don’t hold it against me the rivers inside me they are teaming with brine who knows what futures lie beyond the walls of sleep deep within the hollows and pools inside thousands of fishes try to find their way back home there is no here beyond there there is no here beyond there bhagiti 9.1.07 perrysburg, oh


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#134 explain it away

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 11:35:14 +0000

sometimes we all try to explain it i do it too but sometimes it’s unwise to unravel and dabble in the why because the fruit is soft beneath the rind like they say if you explain it away it’s gone we have looked out the window upon the giant face who strokes its chin while we’re inside quickly rendering it invisible the diamond in the mine is still a stone like they say if you explain it away it’s gone bhagiti 8.31.07 perrysburg, oh


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#133 the short reign of

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 11:31:57 +0000

king loui the blank-teenth your reign was short an unlikely snow king a loner from the get-go unaware of your own perfect purity sometimes timetables times three just don’t make sense to me you in your sweet pea television set bed plastic versailles with your vices and habits you could be cruel but it wasn’t your fault sometimes timetables times three just don’t make sense to me king loui the blank-teenth your reign was short an unlikely snow king but in an instant you taught me how to love a cricket i never knew sometimes timetables times three just don’t make sense to me bhagiti 8.30.07 perrysburg, oh


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#132 the pharaoh's dance

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 11:36:29 +0000

it’s unwise digging up some pharaoh’s tomb are the all wars pestilence and curses worth it for somebody else’s dusty flea market and who’s curse is it anyway ours or his stuck for millennia with an out of date awkward chair a dead cat and impractical gold headwear if there’s a lesson from history it’s this the past is dead and if you die with lots of stuff you’re still dead but we still keep moving million-year-old garage sales into better digs bhagiti 8.28.07 perrysburg, oh


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#131 summer's end

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 11:29:28 +0000

i’m anticipating that day when you can feel that something has changed you can’t put your finger on it but you just know that summer is over and you smell autumn in the air the sky paler the leaves beginning to molder the chill of the morning and the sharpness of night i do not mourn the loss of summer but i celebrate the birth of autumn and its continuously failing resurrection bhagiti 8.28.07 perrysburg, oh


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#130 nowhere is somewhere

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 11:36:47 +0000

coming out of nowhere what a place to be why would anybody leave trade you my here for there nowhere is somewhere got to be does it work in reverse can the tables be turned is it a key without a door or the other way around nowhere is somewhere has to be someone once told me you’re going nowhere but i got lost on the way now i’ve forgotten the directions nowhere is somewhere has to be nowhere is somewhere got to be bhagiti 8.27.07 perrysburg, oh


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#129 sleep's puppeteer won't let me dance

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 12:49:22 +0000

sleep the great equalizer and mystifier we have not danced well together for such a long time what have i done to turn you away take me in your arms and caress me seduce me headlong into your wetless dark waters to swim with the fishes of dreams sleep the more you ignore me the further i slip into this waking coma strung up by your puppeteer who pulls the strings but won’t let me dance bhagiti 8.26.07 perrysburg


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#128 in the forest with no name

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 13:24:03 +0000

rain splatters the trees out my window coming in small crescendos the hissing rising and falling against the leaves i want the green glistening forever in here the lights and speakers hum but i am detached squeezing the life out of this through filters and sieves i am not losing myself fast enough there is a tree resembling each one of us hidden in a forest somewhere we seek it stumble upon it or hide from it if we find it we know how we die bhagiti 8.25.07 perrysburg, oh


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#127 for-ends forever

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 11:25:18 +0000

when we were kids it was always tree-fort go-cart for-ends forever and then there was no end from start to finish to start and now oceans of endings the seas defending clinging and bending over backwards from start to finish to start so we’re for-ends forever strange loops blending endings into openings from start to finish to start bhagiti 8.24.07 perrysburg, oh


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#126 time and time again (but i feel better now)

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 11:40:19 +0000

i have reached the breaking point there is no more i can do they have asked too much time and time again here i am here i am i’ll fold myself into an paper moth and toss myself over the edge flutter or fall i’ll be free time and time again here i am here i am my shell has cracked i am used up i can no longer sleep worried i say it will change but time and time again here i am here i am time and time again here i am here i am bhagiti 8.22.07 perrysburg, oh


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#125 night and day: morning glory nightshade

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 11:36:21 +0000

too much morning in here not much night both have their quiet loneliness but the morning’s wonder is not the night’s mystery what is it to be ruled by the moon or the sun life forces the day upon us desire compels the night each a sentence march into glory retreat into shade the day a battle the night an arcade emerge from one and slip into the other having changed bhagiti 8.22.07 perrysburg, oh


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#124 the only thing that really matters

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 11:22:56 +0000

like the moth knows the flame is warm but deadly and proximity is everything but the moth was not made for delicacy it flits recklessly unafraid carelessly we tumble unaware that the wind may dash us on the rocks our powdery wings obliterated freckle the moss with the only thing that really matters bhagiti 8.21.07 perrysburg, oh


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#123 disappear into the sky

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 11:31:01 +0000

what are we supposed to do get lost in the fields turn under the wheels spit up apple seeds or weep in the weeds or disappear into the sky there’s one thing to be said about dandelion society they lose their heads and the wind just blows them away and disappear into the sky the balloon let go over the grocery store is both joy and horror like a ghost it disappears into the sky bhagiti 8.20.07 perrysburg, oh


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#122 sometimes rain is just rain

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 13:29:09 +0000

my roof has a leak i am still asleep i think the puzzle is not puzzling and i should know better the house tries hard to keep the water out yet our bodies work equally hard keeping it in what is the answer what was the question i have a friend who says he is a laundry room he washes and he dries and the dirty clothes keep coming my soul has a leak i am still asleep i think the puzzle is not puzzling and i should know better what is the answer what was the question bhagiti 8.19.07 perrysburg, oh


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#121 what wonder i wonder what

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 13:28:47 +0000

it was the desert before me from a sliding glass door everybody i knew from childhood was there two tiny black spots writhing in the sky grew and twisted into angels that only i could see then they were gone i came to show you a song i had made and everyone there was already singing it i took you to your door to show you the angels you held my hand but they did not reappear bhagiti 8.18.07 perrysburg, oh


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#120 rattling like an empty boxcar

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 11:20:37 +0000

every morning the train and every engineer says hey it’s me i want to be free in his horn long and low or three quick high hits and this one guy today a melisma born in a faraway place or maybe here without a home looking for the familiar face that means you have meaning it’s ok we’re all dropped here anyway it’s up to us to find our way out so mr engineer hit it like this one time for me bhagiti 8.17.07 perrysburg, oh


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#119 i was getting ready to wrap myself up in the holes in your voice but you were gone

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 11:28:41 +0000

i made my way through crowded streets and a million voices i couldn’t understand it was the mystery and melancholy i had seen in a painting soon i turned into darkness and a stone archway was lit by candlelight behind it a flea market and a woman at a table with a single, oddly-shaped container smiled i knew what was inside but i dared not look she opened it for me and i could not look away bhagiti 8.16.07 perrysburg, oh


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#118 a letter to georgia

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 11:38:05 +0000

billions of miles away there is a star with your name on it whose light hasn’t reached us yet don’t stop wishing upon it deep in the sargasso a treasure is hidden protected by eels and waiting to be found trust is a pearl and a star somewhere there is a box of all the stolen pearls and the light of all the distant stars they are yours bhagiti 8.15.07 perrysburg, oh


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#117 assume the position

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 11:26:02 +0000

what matters make matters worse four horsemen and madhatters drawing and dancing crazy patterns and speaking in tongues and math soon august’s withering will be a thing of the past and soon we’ll be shivering and dreaming that the sea is the sky inverted and the stars are fishes bhagiti 8.14.07 perrysburg, oh


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#116 the penance of memory

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 11:20:25 +0000

what happens in an instant can last forever what takes hours is easily forgotten a falcon on a lamp pole a haiku on the way to the grocery store warm morning insects the dawn chorus rouses me i’m out of coffee bhagiti 8.13.07 perrysburg, oh


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#115 our feet could be laughing at the stars

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 12:20:10 +0000

i’d walk down the street if there was a street to walk upon but nothing’s the same now that everything we once knew is gone the times they did change but i’m afraid i’m the same and it hurts me to say that i still feel like i’m the only one would you lie in my bed tell me it’s gone to my head i’ll agree that the things that i see are not even the way they’re supposed to be and i’ll you a secret about nineteen eighty three that when you were gone i knew that something was wrong oh what i would do to be part of everything if you see that i do then i’ll come back for you and then you will see that our feet could be laughing at the stars and that nothing would ever take us apart that our feet could be laughing at the stars and that nothing would ever take us apart bhagiti 8.12.07 perrysburg, oh


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#114 count to thirteen

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 11:55:12 +0000

i keep waiting and waiting but all it leads to is more waiting i keep writing and writing but all it leads to is more writing i keep wishing and wishing but all it leads to is more wishing i keep loving and loving but all it leads to is nothing i keep sitting and sitting and all it leads to is nothing i’ll stand out here all night and count to thirteen you can be all you ever want in a dream bhagiti 8.11.7 perrysburg, oh


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#113 day in, day out

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 12:49:11 +0000

sometimes we earn our stars and our stripes sometimes our stripes are black and white or our star has fallen prisons stand where we build them brick mortar or invisible stars don’t actually fall the world merely turns day in day out breathe in breathe out bhagiti 8.10.07 perrysburg, oh


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#112 after swimming under swallows a shaman carved me a heart from a pyramid of hot silver

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 11:47:10 +0000

in deference to the hills the sun comes shining for love of the trees swallows on the wing it is real it is real like night to the moon your face is glowing for love of the breeze you trust in knowing it is real it is real once a white dress meant something but after swimming in the clear green water i have forgotten my name and what everything means like shipwreck treasure long fused together the old man carved an icon in silver and placed it into my chest and there it began to beat it is real it is real bhagiti 8.9.07 perrysburg, oh


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#111 now has the shortest lifespan of anything known and it means more than anything else

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 11:36:02 +0000

today i beat the lowdrone and the temple bell ipushed them down before they could seduce me into twenty more minutes of sleep today the morning hums and rings even before the sun sings its heliocentric summer humidity and i wonder if i’ll live today like it was my last so much wasted so much forgotten i know what i gotta do but i can’t seem to get it done maybe tomorrow i’ll let the lowdrone and temple bell hum and ring and escape into twenty minutes of dreaming and stillness and be alive what’s wasted is wasted what’s forgotten is forgotten here everything is vivid now never happens again bhagiti 8.8.07 perrysburg, oh


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#110 like a mummer on the solstice

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 11:26:21 +0000

last night i dreamt my closet was full of unrealistic animal costumes bears rats rabbits squirrels and a porcupine they wore tophats and vests the bear had a watchchain i wore them everyday it was both liberating and terrifying like a mummer on the solstice i wanted it to be true once again when night falls in my head i’d like to know that i know nothing bhagiti 8.7.07 perrysburg, oh


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#109 the moment of disbelief between dreaming and waking

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 11:35:16 +0000

i am moving in spirals both twisting upward and fainting in coils bhagiti 8.6.07 perrysburg, oh


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#108 bhagiti battles the muse and gives birth to a pink hippo

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 13:51:07 +0000

it’s finally raining here again the birds and worms are wriggling the mud is letting go from my head down to my toes the empty cobwebs in my head tell me that philosophy’s dead that bats that were in my belfry have all gone home to bed this one’s not my best one but i’ll do it anyway i throw these things together fast i don’t know any other way it’s just my way to remind myself to be here everyday after gulping down my coffee i got an idea for a line i’ll wring it to it’s inevitable sometimes confusing conclusion toss in some stuff from dreams work in mouths flowers and the sea wrack my brain for memories and twist myself into reverie sometimes it’s like giving birth to a pink hippopotamus i throw these things together fast i don’t know any other way it’s just my way to remind myself to be here everyday the third verse is the hardest one the rhythm got screwed up i know ain’t got time to make it right didn’t get enough sleep last night it’s at one minute thirty-three and the muse has just abandoned me think of something nice to sing but i can’t seem to think of anything like staring at a wall sometimes seems like nothing’s happening i throw these things together fast i don’t know any other way it’s just my way to remind myself to be here everyday bhagiti 8.5.07 perrysburg, oh


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#107 shoots and ladders

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 12:21:36 +0000

i’m sliding down a wire i’m counting on the fire that burns inside keeps me dry i’m looking for a sign i need a small reminder fools are always kinder if they are loved i was told there is a lake with a woman underneath anyone who tries to find her is never seen again i’m tripping up a staircase i’ve fallen flat on my face trying to get back to the top of that wire bhagiti 8.4.07 perrysburg, oh


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#106 cricket in the afterlife

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 11:37:09 +0000

season after season my veins are full of blue and my soul is ripe my soul is ripe there is an elevator to the top of your flower but the sign says don’t bother where did you go where did you go remember when you were pregnant with the sea but you had to give her up where did you go where did you go there is a cricket in the afterlife whose leggy violin will put us all to sleep where did you go where did you go bhagiti 8.3.07 perrysburg, oh


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#105 i awoke to august (in ohio)

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 11:39:05 +0000

i had a dream last night that i was sleeping in a bed outdoors in the middle of winter it was snowing and i was surrounded by douglas fir and pines it was freezing cold but i was warm but i was warm i wanted to stay there forever in my bed as snow continued to pile high and slowly bury me but i awoke to august but i awoke to august it’s already hotter than hell it’s already hotter than hell bhagiti 8.2.07 perrysburg, oh


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#104 the existential rap

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 11:27:58 +0000

pour it in pour it out fill it up and dump it out again full or empty full or empty worry not of this fear more for the empty heart than the empty life life is a journal the heart a tasty morsel three vultures told me bhagiti 8.1.07 perrysburg, oh


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#103 before you can lose yourself you first must be found

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 11:35:35 +0000

what will i do when there are so many i’m already forgetting most all of them is it better to blend in and be forgotten than to be small and shine for a moment you can’t pour water into them you can’t sweep the floor with them i’ll ask myself what’s better a look back a sidelong glance or eyes fixed forward you can’t pour water into them you can’t sweep the floor with them bhagiti 7.31.07 perrysburg, oh


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#102 a desert song

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 11:28:52 +0000

silence nursed from cacti and a million grains of sand in a single square inch each with its own eternity each capable of finding its way into a bottle a beach or nowhere at all each locked in its own oblivion secreted from the buzzards the lizards the tumbleweeds the noon hellfire and the frigid moonlight bhagiti 7.30.07 perrysburg, oh


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#101 collusion

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 12:56:04 +0000

like a dentist who gives kids lollipops for good behavior we stare into the dark and the light our pupils will adjust to both a dry wilting ripple and an eagle’s echoing shriek trying not to be done in by this garden ripe with the color of sound bhagiti 7.29.07 perrysburg, oh


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#100 survival kit for after the turn of the century

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 12:54:34 +0000

we’re living in dangerous times everybody needs a survival kit pack carefully there isn’t much room you’ll need: three cans of irony quick wit spare hearts and a book of unwritten rules you’ll need a photograph of paavo nurmi a bottle opener and an empty bottle find some skin thickener a recyclable container and a soft drive with an undo button you’ll need a redo button a self-made songbook writer’s cramp travel pillbox and an incurable disease you’ll need infinite capacity for love and a healthy appreciation of contradictions bhagiti 7.28.07 perrysburg, oh


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#99 the 5am car alarm is a wake up call

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 12:26:12 +0000

the price for wisdom is feeling what’s locked inside you is stealing what you were meant for a blue heart on a wall another about to fall make your case to the judge but no judgment’s gonna come you’re a blank sheet of paper ask yourself this what’s left to find the bird knows what’s in his beak but not what’s in his breast bhagiti 7.27.07 perrysburg, oh


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#98 recurrent and helpless they are perfect, they are perfect

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 11:29:59 +0000

who believes in the earth do you believe in the sky i believe in the sea the oceans brimming with fishes swimming and they are perfect and they are perfect am i me beyond this sea is it a reflection of me or is it reflected in me we’re all regular people aren’t we sometimes snowflakes look like stars sometimes starfish dance like stars sometimes people feel like stars sometimes stars aren’t stars and they are perfect and they are perfect bhagiti 7.26.07 perrysburg, oh


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#97 mea culpa

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 11:31:41 +0000

even if i had to write it five hundred times on a chalkboard it still wouldn’t be enough a midas touch in reverse is hard to get unstuck sometimes like natalie slumped in her bed the only reason to get up is to show you’re not ready for the blue juice yet the sun overhead like a lightbulb over a big stupid idea laughs like an overheated man in the moon the joke is on me the joke is on me i know what is right but i’m not sure what is left bhagiti 7.25.07 perrysburg, oh


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#96 fish in the trees

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 11:35:55 +0000

of all the fish in the trees and birds in the sea don’t pick me i am a pile of pebbles and each day i try to skip one across to the other side some bounce two or three times before they sink others not once not one has made it yet it’s a long way to go it’s a long way to go of all the fish in the trees and birds in the sea don’t pick me bhagiti 7.24.07 perrysburg, oh


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#95 belladonna

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 11:31:36 +0000

love and confusion conspire to tear you apart still you are lillies spilling from the mouths of lovers but at night belladonna you become its poison numbs you its gift no pain so you may fulfill your destiny the antidote you 7.23.07 perrysburg, oh


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#94 we're all alive in someone else's souvenir tourist snow-globe

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 12:12:06 +0000

how much smaller can you go if you could only have three hundred things what would you keep what would you throw away what dusty keepsakes living in a shoebox do you take to remind yourself of parties vacations birthdays and funerals long gone did you take the pictures steal the towels or buy the t-shirt because you wanted to remember or because you knew you’d forget bhagiti 7.22.07 perrysburg, oh


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#93 lo and behold

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 12:00:56 +0000

your ghosts silent brushstroke tombstones behind lilacs and grasses lo and behold lo and behold with one silent brushstroke forever ruling matisse obsolete lo and behold lo and behold bhagiti 7.21.07 perrysburg, oh


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#92 earnesty is the best policy

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 11:35:12 +0000

how could you of all people be stuck here alone in toledo i just don’t get it what’s the matter with people it’s something else isn’t it there’s something i can’t put my finger on what’s the rest of this story i’ll ask i’ll ask now did you see me look at your hands there was something i wanted to ask i saw you turn in the mirror i’ll ask i’ll ask now what do you say bhagiti 7.20.07 perrysburg, oh


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#91 the past is no friend's couch upon which to sleep

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 11:39:15 +0000

the past is no friend’s couch upon which to sleep bedbugs there hobnob with haints look back and turn to salt disobey daedalus and get yourself dead everyday i deal in yesterday i dance the dance of death one foot forward do si do one foot back fall apart at the end i’ll sing one last eulogy for everything that came before bhagiti 7.19.07 perrysburg, oh


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#90 always the moon to me

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 11:31:54 +0000

i’ve been here before and it’s always the same love lets them go and i’m half drowned do you not see the irony i do i tuned my strings too high and they’re starting to break my heart it won’t make a sound but i’ll listen real close you too a hundred thousand flowers i give you just walk to the top of this hill and look down there they are they are yours they always were you always will be the moon to me you always will be the moon to me bhagiti 7.18.07 perrysburg, oh


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#89 you are the jewel of a million sunrises and sunsets. you twinkle eternally

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 11:30:03 +0000

you are a flower undiscovered still unnamed but with a beauty surpassed only by your fragility no color dare contain you no narcissus bending to the water to sob restrained at her reflection no willow weeping in untold lengths of green tendrils reaching where do you go from here you don’t know the way you don’t know the way what the world wouldn’t give to love you to see you wake in the morning to weave silver in your hair smelling of outside how can you choose between the things you love when you feel unloved when the arrows you’re shooting keep missing the apples of your watery eyes where do you go from here you don’t know the way you don’t know the way listen you don’t need to know you just go bhagiti 7.17.07 perrysburg, oh


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#88 bhagiti's 115th dream

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 11:18:42 +0000

the old house wasn’t quite so scary this time john’s father didn’t fall off the ladder but i went off the roof despite being able to fly and was broken badly the grave was a gimmick and so was the gate you were so much younger than i remember and went to your room to play with the cat and the other jennifer and i kissed in the kitchen when i was skipping school until mom broke a blister on my hand before washing the dishes and we all looked at dirty pictures and ate our breakfast bhagiti 7.16.07 perrysburg, oh


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