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The Traveling was Hard

A blog about my recovery from chronic fatigue, my spiritual journey, a peek into my reflective existential life. Contemplating the meaning of life on a daily basis, trying to stay positive and make the world a better place. Stay tuned for what ever I am

Updated: 2018-04-24T11:17:52.164-07:00


Gut Health Test by Ubiome


Hello there - I still continue to have health problems. I get better for awhile and then worse.  Recently I did start doing the Boron supplement using Borax I know it sounds strange. I believe I have a candida infection in my body but that is my next question from this test.

This is a video of me explaining the ubiome test on gut health. It is pretty cool.

It appears that the embed video option isn't working right now - so I'll just post a link to it - This is me doing a screen grab video of my ubiome test -

Looking for new friends on an APP?


So I tried the "Bumble BFF" app and a few people that I chose, chose me over the period of several days it was only 2 people. And I started an awkward conversation to them only to get silence so I deleted the freakin app.

But today I had a very nice morning meeting with a new friend who I have a lot in common with but I'm just finding out that she is a Republican by looking at her twitter? How come everyone I meet is a republican but I'm a hard core liberal? Is it what we resist persists?

I just want to make friends with people who put human rights over money.  Is that so freakin hard? Apparently so.

And I really like her.

Look at this - OMG so I'm looking for another app and right in it the app, the makers are all in love with Trump OMG - so annoying. But the app looks cool let's see if it works for me, being that it appears biased republican.

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Work smarter not harder! This is about juggling tasks, tracking time, writing your business plan, Amazon Book Marketing, andVideo Marketing


I've been wanting to write a blog about all these free and low-cost tools I've found to increase my productivity but haven't had time so I just typed out this email to a friend/colleague and decided to post this instead. If you are interested in any of these items you'll have to research them yourself but these items have made a huge difference in my life in the past month."Dear friend:Thanks. Yes.  I really enjoyed our lunch or first visit, and we should totally do that again when you have free time.  I've always wanted to focus on my docu-series but I couldn't figure out how to get it to pay for itself. I started working with Liz back in 2014. I was even accepted into the long term  Portland State Business Development program a few months later but then I was just too ill to accept it.  Now for about a year, I'm better.  I started meeting with her again last fall when I had the Portland Video Memoir idea  in addition to my other 2 or 3 things. I was selling stock video footage, freelance film work, and Consciousness Continues and then Portland Video Memoir but everything was all concept and very little income except for friends I networked with who hired me. She helped me connect to all these different programs and classes. She got me signed up for these 2 (1 day) classes PCC (value of like $385). It was how to do a marketing plan and then online marketing. And then as time went by I knew in my heart I just wanted to work on Consciousness Continues but I was trying to figure out a way to fund it.  I started my business plan about a month ago. I tried all these different resources that just did not fit with my brain. I tried the score free template, live plan, and then finally enloop. I love enloop. It automatically fills in portions of your business plan and updates automatically when you change figures.  It is 19.99/mo but I think it is worth it.  I got my money back from liveplan it was just like the fillable word docs to me. So Here I was doing the enloop plan and I was working on my marketing plan and thinking about how I didn't want to do Portland Video Memoir because it is all sales and no time for work.  And I looked up information about how to make money with my book. I had made about $400 without doing much advertising. And then I saw this post on Amazon forums about advertising. I saw one guy say that another successful writer and marketer says to advertise even if your cost of advertising is up to 100% of your sales because the Cost of advertising to sales figure shown only counts for copies sold and not kindle pages.  Then I got thinking that I had already made a few hundred dollars from my short film with zero advertising. What would happen if I advertised? So then I researched what is the best way to advertise tv shows and found that pre-roll ads on youtube are inexpensive and very effective. I also did an Amazon Kindle Marketing ad that says "If you love the short film and docu-series, you are going to love the book" Funny thing is it hasn't sold many books but my viewership on the short film and episode 1 has tripled in just a few days.  So I did a marketing projection and I think if I continue putting out episodes every few months, and increase my advertising budget. Plus the $4000 from my IDA (this is a matched savings program in oregon) towards those expenses. I can actually create perpetual income for the future. I'm very excited. I also came across 2 other really useful tools in the past few weeks. Working at home has been hard to stay focused during summer time because my children are very distracting and I have several household tasks that have to be kept up on.  So I found this desktop app, it's a beta but it's called skedpal, it's free but has a learning curve with it that took me a few days.  What is really cool about this app is that it connects to your Google calendar and then you fill in tasks and prioritize them in skedpal and it fills in your time with pro[...]

Can you find a friend with an app? I'm going to try Bumble BFF


I was looking online the other day to find if there was an app for finding new friends. Since I wrote my wah wah post the other day listing how I have lost basically all my friends. I have tons of acquaintances but when working from home I just don't keep up friendships unless it's a really good friend.  And those friends just haven't worked out.

So I download the Bumble BFF app on my phone and filled in on all my deal breaker issues and benefits (that I'm an artist and I like deep conversations). Then I swiped my way through the list of women only looking for a Friend.  If there was no description I swiped left (which means no) because I can't pick a friend based on looks and if they had a description that seemed similar or atleast open minded I swiped right. I probably swiped right on about 20 people. and now 3 days later I hear nothing back. It could be because the free version you aren't notified if someone swiped you, you just have to happen to swipe right too. This is my first experience with this type of app. I missed the whole Tinder thing.  But we will see. I'll post when something happens.

Here's a link about the app - 

My experience with a Naturopath. A year of feeling mostly better, but still a struggle.


Well I did get much much better after August 24, 2016 see this post where I honestly felt cured: .Treating Vitamin D deficiency really helped, in fact, I'm still taking Vitamin D 3000mg per day.By January 2017 I started to feel a little sick and fatigued again.By March the random fatigue was getting stronger and I had been taking Metformin for Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I had read that you can often have a Vitamin B12 deficiency with Metformin.  So I asked my endocrinologist and she said that only happens with years of taking Metformin. Before I got to that point I went to my primary internal medicine doctor and he said I wasn't getting more sick again, I was at my baseline. Boy that made me so mad. He was saying that I had been in remission during the time I felt better. Jerk.  But to humor me he got my Vitamin B12 level checked.  My Vitamin B12 levels ended up being just barely over the normal line. And my research found that many allopathic doctors go by a level of Vitamin B12 that is much lower than what your body really needs. I started taking Vitamin B12 in liquid form and felt better.Because he is such an asshole I also made an appointment to see a naturopath doctor that was recommended to me.  But by the time I went to see her I was feeling fantastic again because I started on B12. Who knew B12 and Vitamin D were lifesavers? I think I had read here and there that B12 and D were important but I just never got the point that they are essential.So I finally go to see the Naturopath a few months later and she started adding a bunch of supplements and saying I needed to get off my other medications yet at the same time she gave me like 10 new supplements. She was convinced I needed to get off my thyroid meds. Which I DID NOT DO. I'm not insane, jeez, I only have half a thyroid that stopped working in my 20's anyway.After seeing her for about 4 weeks I started feeling sick again. I went into it trusting her but she ended up losing my confidence about 8 weeks in because it really felt like she just wanted me to buy supplements from her. She even told me I didn't need to take Vitamin D or Vitamin B12, based on her hunch, no blood tests, only her nutritional response testing which is pretty kooky and not scientific at all. She says it is elegant. WTF?The initial estimate she gave me for treatment was that I would be paying $50 every 2 weeks, but she didn't include that at first she wanted me to come every week for about 6 weeks. Each week she wanted me to buy between $50 and $100 worth of vitamins. My credit card shot up maybe $600 or more. As she added more and more stuff I started feeling worse and until one day I just threw up. I had been trying to trust her advice but then when I spontaneously threw up I stopped trusting her.   Never in my life through 3 pregnancies have I ever had a weak stomach. With everything she was giving me I just started puking one day.  Her explanation was that my gallbladder was overwhelmed and cut my dosages in half. It did feel better again but I finally told her I couldn't see her anymore. I did continue taking a couple supplements she prescribed until they ran out, but not all of them.After I stopped seeing her about 4 or 5 weeks ago I was doing fantastic. I started taking Braggs Apple Cider Vinegar everyday along with Vitmin B12, Vitamin D, Magnesium, probiotic, and the papaya enzymes. Plus my prescriptions - 4 things, Levothyroxine - thyroid, Aspirin to prevent stroke, and 2 blood pressure meds - Losartan and Spirolactone.Then 2 days ago the merry go round started again high blood pressure, fatigue, everything all messed up again. It could be as simple of a cold virus but who knows.Sometimes I lose hope that I can ever live a normal life again, of being a successful filmmaker.  I know that sounds melodramatic but this has  been going on for so long [...]

Sex, Religion and Politics - is it a deal breaker for friendships? It seems like it ends up that way even if you don't want it to.


I started this blog because I wanted to vent. It was 2008 and we lived in Mexico. I felt like I didn't have anyone to talk to and so I just started writing about everything that was in my heart and on my mind.  But what happened was I became aware that local people I worked with read what I was writing. Blogs were very popular at the time. I wrote about some of the people I was working with and later was pretty sure I heard people discussing what I had written. So I toned down the truth a bit.In the beginning I thought that since I was way down in Mexico and my other life I had before was up here in Portland, Oregon that no one would have any idea what I was talking about.  My entire life I'd wanted to write. To pour out what was in my heart. But when I realized local people would be reading it I curbed it a bit. Then later when I was practicing law of attraction, which I still ascribe to in most senses, I realized that writing my worries and upsets just gave more strength to the problem. So I took my everyday life out of it even farther.says a slave owner who raped his slaves and put his own children into slavery.OLD FRIEND Now days I only spend time with my immediate family. Being that I am an artist/filmmaker I don't have co workers or even many clients. For years I have/had a best friend but my dear friend L and I just don't see eye to eye on some big issues. These issues may be deal breakers because we both mutually stopped contacting each other.We love to share and talk, we usually have a great time together, but our family values are a little different.  I believe that my children should be exposed to certain things that are part of society so that once they are older they don't go off the deep end.  I'm not referring to drug use or anything like that but more like education, public schools, media, etc. I've never let my children play violent games but I do let them watch movies and listen to songs that have bad words and even worse scenarios, yet at the same time, I still shield them from some of the major catastrophes of the world.She is sort of the exact opposite, she doesn't want her kids to see anything that has to do with normal sexuality but is constantly talking about the worst crisis of the world in other parts of the world and showing them the gore that is going on.For me, with media and my kids, if things get too dirty I still send my 11-year-old out of the room. For my 14-year-old on the other hand, I just let it slide. Especially after the fact that she has gotten into too much adult type stuff, that I shockingly found out about when she was younger and I'm not going to pretend she doesn't know about it. So I gave up that battle. I still do battle with her about staying away from people who are already on a  bad path early in life. Plus she is a straight A student and at some point you have to give them some respect for that accomplishment. But of course not total freedom.My friend L believes she should control all media that her children are exposed to.  She talks a lot about the end of the world and demons and awful fears she has and she has some pretty strange ideas about god and how god is in our lives. She believes that many good things in life are the devil trying to trick you. I don't get it and don't want to, because I believe there is no reason to complicate life so much. In my view good is good and bad is bad.The last thing we differ on are our political views. She is buying into all the right wing media, fake news about Progressive and liberal people. And I'm a liberal. It is weird because she is a smart person, but somehow she believes that what they are saying is not a theater show propaganda but is real news.  When Obama was in office she was all into all the conspiracy theories about him being gay or sharia law or what ever. She is/was addicted to news about isis and basically spending all h[...]

Auto-writing for peace of mind


I'm so distraught this last week. The things I've seen in the media, the stories my children have been telling me for months but I didn't take it seriously. Hate in the name of Trump.  "Build a wall." coming from children at my children's school. "I should grab your pussy, It's Trumps America now bitch."  Happened to a girl I went to college with. You read the comments on videos of protesters and so much hate and opposing sides. I'm going to do auto writing again because I am having the worst time even concentrating on my project.

Q - Dear God please give me advice on how I should go forward, I'm having such a rough time.

A- It will come a time when you are united with the people of your source, it is only then that you worry what will happen to them. Give graciously and take kindly. Be the person you always wanted to be with grace and love. These rough times are a test of our ability to love, do it. Be kind anyway. In a turmoil society you have but one choice and that is to assimilate to kindness. Hold your tongue and emanate love. Focus on giving and praying and loving and you will change just a little piece of this reality.Your will be done.

You might think I'm a Kook, I'll put it all out there, I'm a progressive liberal who also does autowriting,


I ask a question and listen for the answer. Today I ask: Dear God,  What do I do now, how should I go forward?

In times of despair, it is best to vet the circumstances. It would be a travesty to give up. You are a strong woman and an inspiring person. You can lead people but you must stay true to the identity of faith. You must learn that hope and faith are only a connection of spring. Meaning they are connected via the aqueduct of life, ebbing forth the holy stream of consciousness that comes forth for all. In the world, we must fight the good fight, but we must also learn to find kindness.

Anyway, that was auto-writing. I have not done that for awhile. I've been practicing my Course in Miracles but with all the stress of the new president-elect, I've been going in circles, defeated, not doing well.

I am cured! (updated July 30, 2017)


I guess I can change my blog back to a normal blog about a hodgepodge of stuff because I'm cured.

If you look through previous posts you can see that I was convinced I had some life-threatening disease, but after I did all the parasite cleanses, which I'm continuing to do, I was still terribly fatigued. I have PCOS and thyroid issues so I waited 4 months to see an endocrinologist. She took my Vitamin D levels and checked my thyroid levels. They were both low, according to how she reads it.  My regular internist doctor had been saying my thyroid levels were fine, but she said that to be optimal, they should be higher. She also put me on a prescription dose of vitamin D.

I'm cured. So much that I finished my book:

I'm starting a new business:

I'm feeling great!

So if you feel like crap all the time this is what helped me, Reeses Pinworm medicine or search Curezone for Pyrantel and you will get a suggestion how to get larger quantities for cheaper, treat your whole family twice a year. Also, check your vitamin D level and thyroid level.  


I've thought I was cured before, but this time I haven't been bedridden since August 24, 2016. 

Blessings to all, check out my book.  I'm working on getting the series up on Amazon Video. 


Updated in new post on July 30, 2017

My Blood pressure is high, but I feel 200% better than before. !!!!!!!!!


So my new doctor and I have been trying all different types of medicines to figure out how to control my blood pressure, but.... what if having high blood pressure isn't the worse thing that could happen.

I mean.... it is very high right now, but I feel fantastic... so what?  At this point, I'd rather live with high blood pressure feeling great, then have lower blood pressure and feel deathly ill and actually believe that I was dying for YEARS....

(image) The latest medicine my doctor gave me is spironolactonejust after I started taking it I started getting these terrible stomach aches, which have been getting progressively worse. My blood pressure doesn't seem to be improving at all. I looked up today the common side effects of Spironolactone and it says stomach pain, stomach cramps, and nausea. Well... I really take this seriously. Before, for some ignorant reason I would never think my illness was first from the medication, but now.. I do.

I'm also feeling better and I think looking better.

Music Video I made for my nephew a young music producer - Luis C-D


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What was supposed to be making me better was making me sick. Are your prescriptions Killing you?


Hello Everyone, I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm doing way better. I think I'm back to my pre-2009 self. I'm ready to get back to work. Just found this book - Are Your Prescriptions Killing You?: How to Prevent Dangerous Interactions, Avoid Deadly Side Effects, and Be Healthier with Fewer Drugs If you want my long BORING medical story, here it is: Maybe you didn't know or maybe you knew that in 2007 I started getting very ill (in Mexico). I developed hypertension, kidney stones, osteoarthritis, GERD, and a variety of other problems. In 2008 I started taking a hypertension medicine called Carvedilol aka Coreg. In 2010 I actually had a stroke. I was eating a can of chilli after coming home from college and I couldn't talk, my tongue just was not working. I thought maybe I was allergic to the preservatives. The nurse hotline told me to take a Benadryl and call back in the morning, but if it got worse to go into the hospital. It got worse and I was losing my speech and I felt a pulling on one side of my face. They couldn't figure out what was wrong with me and sent me to get an MRI and found that I had actually had a stroke. They also found that including that time, I had a total of 5 strokes. At that time Doctors added the medicine Amlodipine and aspirin. Ever since then I've been awfully sick, just getting more sick and more sick every year and gaining 5 to 10 lbs a year because I was too sick to be active, I guess. One doctor told me the fatigue was because of the strokes, that some people have permanent fatigue after a stroke, and that was a naturopath. My main doctor believed I just had anxiety and it was all in my head. I couldn't work. The doctors could not figure out what was wrong I had zillons of blood tests and other tests. Just kept getting worse and worse and unable to work because 1/3rd of my time was bed ridden and over half my time I was majorly ill, the rest of the time I was getting around, but ran out of energy at 3pm when I had to take a Tramadol just to have stamina to get through the day. Last year I was doing all these cleanses and it seemed like I got a little better but then I got worse, and then worse. This year new symptoms showed up, amoung the dozens of other symptoms, my liver enzymes were elevated, feet were swelling every day, they would only get better when I laid down. Then on Spring break I fell at Universal studios and got a big knot on my left shin. After that, my left foot was swelling to unrecognizable proportions.I came back from vacation and my doctor was basically ignoring my problems. I ended up seeing a Physician Assistant and he really tried to help me. He told me that Amlodipine could be causing the strange headaches and for sure the swelling. I was taking way too high of a dosage and for way too long, since it had long-term side effects. So we reduced my dosage and it helped a little with the swelling. But he increased the other medicine Carvedilol. Then one day I was talking to a pharmacist and she said that she was surprised that Amlodipine was causing fatigue, usually, people had fatigue with Carvedilol. Oh really? Hmmmmm So I changed doctors and asked him to switch up my medication. And he did. I've now been on 2 new blood pressure medicines for about 4 -5 weeks. The traveling pain, weird headaches and fatigue have left. I still get normal problems but now the normal issues like common cold, allergy, random headaches, or PMS don't make me bed ridden like before. So there you have it. I've been taking Carvedilol since 2008 and Amlodipine since 2010. These medicines that were supposed to be helping me were making me terribly ill. Now I feel so much better. I'm ready to get going on my career, and all my amb[...]

Where does my Chronic Illness Come from? An introspective look at possibilities.


I was carrying a tall, round, overflowing laundry basket through the living room and I thought, What got me here? What actually brought me to this point of  Chronic Fatigue and dissatisfaction with my life.  I am dissatisfied because I'm tired of being chronically ill.I used to write in my journal almost every day and then in 2008 I started a blog and slowly after that my writing dwindled down and dwindled down. It is weird how we limit ourselves when we write out in the public.In my research of illness, I've come across the ACE test, here is an article about it on NPR. I'm not sure where I originally came across it.  You can take the test here on an article on NPR and read more about it here I did the test just now I came up with a 3 it could be a 4 but the questions are sort of open for some interpretation.  It is because my mother was mentally ill and gone 2/3 rds of the time before I was 18.  We were often very poor, on an off. Once when I was 15 we were homeless for a few months when we moved to California.  My father was an alcoholic but it wasn't a problem alcoholic.  My father did cuss and yell about stuff but it generally was not directed at me.  Only if I was being a brat.  I was never abused physically, sexually, or mentally but those other things actually do add up.Now, I wonder if that has something to with my chronic illness.I used to think that what made me get sick was my IUD. I had a Mirena IUD put in in Fall 2006, I started getting very sick in mid-2007 in Mexico.  I developed Hypertension, kidney stones, back issues, stroke, etc etc.  But now I'm not so sure.  I've had the Mirena out since 2010.  One reason I thought it was the Mirena IUD was because through 3 pregnancies I never once got pregnancy Hypertension. One reason I'm doubting it now because since I got the Mirena out I haven't gotten better.I've only gotten worse.Also as far as the kidney stones something interesting happened, for my entire drinking life, the desire to drink hard alcohol and not being able to stop drinking was very strong before the kidney stone episode.  Not only was the desire to drink stronger but the hangovers were much worse. From the time I drank in my teens through that kidney stone surgery, I would have the most devastating hangovers. I could have a glass of wine and get a terrible hangover. I could drink 10 shots of tequila and have a terrible hangover. These hangovers were where I literally felt like I was dying. I'd puke all day long, turn green, be in complete agony until late the next day about 9pm.  After the Kidney stone surgery, I can drink and I don't really get a hangover. Now, it's like what people always told me hangovers were like, you just feel a little tired and groggy. But I rarely drink now anyway, because of the longer term health affects.I'm always seeing this thing about forgiveness and people who don't forgive get chronic illness - here is the mayo clinic about it  But  honestly, I've forgiven everyone I can think of over and over again for years. I really don't feel like I have any grudges that I can recall.  Occasionally I get pissed off about things but who doesn't right?  Back in 1997 I went through this whole thing where I wrote letters to all the people in my life and physically spoke about any feelings I had about injustice done to me.  Any people I didn't talk to I mentally forgave them. I've even forgiven my first mother-in-law for all the nasty things she did. W[...]

Low income programs , free stuff, and Couponing Portland Oregon (maybe similar offers in your area too if you search) - Part 4


after part of demo, before tub was changed
after remodel done. 
UNLIMITED CHOICES - So the thing that inspired me to write about low income programs in my area was this.  Unlimited Choices.   I had heard about a program listed in Part 2 of this series that was for critical plumbing assistance through the city. After a year or so of trying to get an answer from the city, I found out that I am not in the correct area to get that program.  The man at the city said I could try Unlimited Choices. Unlimited Choices does plumbing and other critical home repairs for low income and people in need.  I contacted them and they asked me some preliminary questions and about our issues. I said that when we bought the house we got an inspection and they said that the plumbling for the 1/2 bath was done wrong, that we have a leak under our tub, and in the shower wall, and other leaks.   They mailed me an application and I filled in the income requirements and mailed it back. A few months later they called me and said we qualified for the program and that they needed to come see the project.  A man from Unlimited Choices came out and checked out our issues and took photos.  He informed me that they could NOT do any preventative work but they could fix the current problems. Then about 3 weeks later a contractor contacted us and said they would start the following Monday. Then 3 days later we had a new tub, new surround, new shower faucet and plumbing, new kitchen faucet, and they made sure the plumbing underneath the house didn't leak anymore.  They also did all the safety testing for lead and everything.  No cost to us.  I forgot to get photos of the complete before remodel. What you can't see is that there was this thin tin tile that was falling off the wall, inside the wall was all moldy, the tub had a spot that was warn off and getting thinner by the year, the drain didn't hold water, and you can see in the first photo the faucet was the original 1963 faucet. Below is the after photo.   I feel so blessed.

Low income programs , free stuff, and Couponing Portland Oregon (maybe similar offers in your area too if you search) - Part 3


(image) Oh my god - I'm so excited.  In Portland they have this thing that is called Arts for All, you can get discounted tickets to events for $5 using your Oregon Trail Card (Oregon's Snap card).  There is this huge lists of places you can get the $5 tickets at.

clipped from the Portland Center Stage Website
So I just got 2 tickets to the musical Ain't Misbehaving for $10.   Oh my gosh, so excited.

There are several more things I wanted to add but I ran out of time.

Low income programs , free stuff, and Couponing Portland Oregon (maybe similar offers in your area too if you search) - Part 2


THE ENTERTAINMENT BOOK can really be a good deal.  If you wait until the year is already underway you can buy these books for $10 if you get it at this discount it pays for itself on the first use. Last May I bought one of these books for my area and even got instant electronic access as well as free shipping.  Even if you just use it for events or Regal Cinemas you will make your money back pretty fast.The reason we bought it is because last Mothers day had planned a trip to go to WAAM.WAAM or the Western Automobile and Airplane Museum and I knew it was too expensive so I was searching for a coupon, the only one I could find was in the entertainment book.  I knew it was expensive because one time a few years ago we went to go visit my mother in Hood River, who is in an advanced care center there. She wasn't doing well and didn't want visitors, so we decided to explore Hood River. We just happened across this museum.  We decided to go inside and just check to see how much entrance is, occasionally you will find a museum that is free or low cost. That was far from the case that time.Here are the current prices - Adults: $14, Seniors: $12, Veterans: $12, Kids 5-18: $6, 4 & Under: Free. As we were checking out the gift shop and just chatting with the girl who worked there a couple came up and said they overheard our conversation about not being able to afford it and wanted to pay our way in.  I was a little embarrassed, but I know what it is like to offer help to someone and be rejected so I bit my tongue and just graciously accepted it.  We felt very very blessed.Later on I knew that my mother and brother would really enjoy this, and the children liked it as well so I was just trying to find a way to save money. So I downloaded the app that said bogo, I called and double checked exactly how it worked. You can use it up to 4 times on one coupon.   So we basically got 50% off for Me, my husband, mother, brother, son, his girlfriend and 2 kids.  We split the costs with my brother and son and it was much more economical.It would  have beenMe and E = $28Bryan and Mom = $24Teal and Sarah = $28June and Jimi = $12Total = $92It ended up costing $46 instead of $92, and the cool thing is we still have the paper coupon to do it again, well until 12/31/2015.If you decide to go by there keep in mind that there is the entire warehouse museum, but once a month you can actually ride in the cars. Check their website for details. Meanwhile, I recommend buying the Entertainment book in the spring when it is 75% off.PLAY IT FORWARD / Snowman foundation   There is a local community organization called the Rosewood Initiative which is close to my house. I often see flyers posted on the window or just sitting inside for the community.  I came accross this information and I applied for a piano for my children because the deal also comes with free online piano lessons. But I think my story was not compelling enough because we never heard back. If you have a child with an established aptitude for music you may be able to get a free instrument or piano for them. Check it out.MULTNOMAH COUNTY WEATHERIZATION PROGRAM   First off you have to be a homeowner for this, I think. Years ago we did this weatherization program. We had to wait a long time for this but we finally got it and they really did a lot of stuff. They added insulation put doors in. Closed air leaks.  It was pretty cool. I think I have an application in for this now. I had tried to apply for the plumbing assistance  in spring of 2014, they lost[...]

Low income programs , free stuff, and Couponing Portland Oregon - Part 1


Since I have not been able to work for awhile due to my unpredictable health we are still in the income bracket of low income.  Being so, when I feel well I am seriously the master at finding  free stuff or awesome programs to help low-income families. So even though we only live on my husbands wages we are super lucky.PORTLAND HOUSING CENTER: First off we started going through this home buyer program in 2011, through Portland Housing Center.  They help you improve your credit, and make you take classes about home ownership. At the time it cost $65 per couple. Since we hadn't owned a home in over 3 years we qualified as a first time home owner again. We got into the program with perfect timing because of the Oregon IDA, which is a savings account that you can use for specific purposes. When we got into it we somehow got the higher match rate where when we saved $100 and they gave us $400. So in the end we saved $2000, over about 2 years and they gave us $10,000.  So we had $12,000 for a down payment.   We also got into this low-interest rate program where our interest rate is only 3.125 .  We had to pick from the realtors that were listed on the program at the time Tyson Bolster was available. A really nice, funny, attractive guy who absolutely has integrity and he follows through Tyson Bolster at Georgetown Realty He really encouraged us and helped us find the best deal for our money.DEQ - CAPS PROGRAM: :  My car wasn't running correctly for a few years, which started when my husband and cousins did some work on it and it never ran the same after that. I did a lot of research and I was sure it was the timing belt because according to the internet, PT Cruisers were notoriously difficult to get the timing right on. I told my husband about what I had found but they didn't believe me.   When it came time to renew our plates it would not get through DEQ.  I found on the back of the DEQ paperwork this program called CAPS, for low-income people to get help  fixing their car to get tags.  As always there was a thorough screening process and a pretty long wait which was about 4 months. But after that they fixed our car, it was the timing after all, there was a limit of I think $650 dollars worth of mechanic work.  Because it was a special program I think that the dealership charged less than normal. My car passed DEQ and they even waived part of the Fee.  We have used this for both food banks, Harvest Share programs,  and energy assistance. There has been several times when food banks have helped us a lot because after bills we could not afford food for the whole month even with the small amount of snap we get. My very good friend said to me one time, "Why on earth did you buy that house if you can't afford food." Well now especially we are lucky because rental prices have jumped far beyond what our house payment is. We pay $1200 a month for a mortgage and sometimes after all the bills there is barely anything left for food. With our house at least we are building our own equity rather than someone else's and our payment will only rise with taxes, and is not in the hands of the real estate boom that is happening in Portland.HABITAT FOR HUMANITY RE-STORE: The reason I bring this up is because our local ReStore has a free pile, look what we got for free. Last summer I was looking for cabinets for my little office and I kept checking out the free pile for cabinets and what not.  One time they got this huge shipment of furniture and cabinets. This particular dresser was[...]

I'm getting tested for Lyme Disease


I mean that is I'm going to see if the Naturopath will run the Western Dot test from Igenex on me. That is the test I've read that is the most accurate.   I hate, hate, hate, to be a whiner and complainer so it is always hard for me to write about my own problems. But I just saw this clip of someone who was talking about how their life was with Lyme disease and it was awful and hopeless and I began to cry. The courage it takes to talk about how hard things are moves me, and no one really knows how hard it is unless they have been in your shoes.Lately, I've been having a few bad days, with the weird neurological symptoms. Since I started taking DE I think I've noticed connections from various pains, twitching, and numbness to my digestion and how my stomach feels. I've heard that digestion is the root of many problems.Earlier this week I started searching "Lyme disease worse during menstrual cycle" and found a lot of interesting information. Ever since my cycle was getting prepared last week, to this week of having it, I have felt TERRIBLE.  I know I feel better than before DE but it is very disappointing because I was so hoping that DE was going to be my cure. My worst day was yesterday where I just didn't have the energy to do anything all day. This morning  I noticed that I felt like this pain or humming in my stomach and then I felt this weird numbness sensation on the extremities of my body. So something is going on in my digestion that causes me to get worse. Being chronically ill is like always having this mystery you are trying to solve.  Even in my blog I've been through so many trial and errors. One thing that has definitely helped is the Diatomaceous Earth. It  has also been helping my family a lot. My son has so much more energy, and my good days are way better than they used to be. But if I do have Lyme disease I've been told that Diatomaceous Earth is not strong enough to get rid of it.Here is a link to one article about the documentary saysBy Dr. MercolaUnrelenting pain. Headaches, muscle aches, swollen joints, rashes. Loss of coordination and muscle spasms. Intermittent paralysis. Cycles of disabling symptoms that persist for years, causing ceaseless suffering and frustration for patients and their families.This is the picture of chronic Lyme disease. And yet, many physicians tell their patients there is "no such thing," referring them to psychiatrists, misdiagnosing them, or even accusing them of fabricating an illness or simply seeking attention."Under Our Skin," a critically acclaimed documentary and Oscar semi-finalist exposes the hidden story of Lyme disease, one of the most serious and controversial epidemics of our time. Slant Magazine calls it "head-spinning...riveting...a rigorously researched and highly thorough piece of investigative reporting."Each year, thousands go undiagnosed or misdiagnosed, often told their symptoms are all in their heads. "Under Our Skin" brings into focus a troubling picture of a health care system that is far too willing to put profits ahead of patients. The Chicago Daily Herald calls it "a ripping indictment of the medical establishment's failure to uphold its oath."UPDATED: I was tested and it was negative.  I still don't know what is wrong with me. [...]

Diatomaceous Earth - Day 35 - Little by little I'm doing better and better


So I'm going to get checked to see if I have Lyme Disease. According to a few people on various FB forums my symptoms listed back in my First Diatomaceous Earth post  seem like I may have Lyme Disease. I asked my medical Dr. to run the western dot test on me, which I had read is an accurate one. He responded, that it would be a waste of time and that there is a high likelihood of a false positive result. So I have an appointment to go back to the Naturopath to see if he will run the Igenex test for Lyme on November 11, 2015.   

My husband thinks I'm crazy searching up things trying to find the answer to my health problems. But the thing is when he has 1 or 2 days where he doesn't feel good he seems really confused as to why.  Try years of feeling like shit not wanting to get up most of the time. I've had plenty of good days the last few years but the truth that no one knows is I had to take a pain reliever called Tramadol to get through the day. A medication that says do not drive or operate heavy machinery while you are on it.

I'm proud to announce that in the past 34 days I've only had to take Tramadol 1 time and that is when I went out with my oldest son for an adventure.

My cycle has come back after 33 days I'm hoping it will start to be normal. It has been so irregular ranging from 24 days to 49 days in between. So this is interest that since I started DE it is 33 days.

Right now I consider myself in recovery of Chronic Fatigue, because I am getting better, but I am not fully cured.  My attitude is better and my energy is better. My patience is back.   I'm sleeping better, and my skin is clearer. The list goes on and on.

Dear our old House - I'm trying to let go and be happy for you


This is the house after we lived there for yearsMothers day gift from My eldest 2003In front of my favorite car 2003 ish2002 Pregnant with June with my Mom. When I was first invited to your Halloween party that was last Saturday, (that we were unable to go to) to be honest, I was scared. But in truth it was more than that.  It's as if you had left me and you are now happy with someone else. It hurt, you know.  How you could move on so easily and then meet the perfect family and just take off exactly from where you were with us? But the truth is I left you, we left you.  I don't regret what we did because we got to get to know my Father in Law before he died, but I do miss you.  So we sold you and I'm not sure how the first family treated you, but I can tell that the family that lives there now loves you a lot. And I'm happy for you. Though it does hurt in a weird way that you could be as happy as you were when we lived there, I understand. I never meant for you to be alone or lonely,  I'm trying to let go.  It's just that we had so many memories there.  When we moved in it was just Enrique, Me, and Teal.  When we moved out we were 5.  Enrique, Me, Teal, June, and Jimi. And we did so many little remodels.  You were fun to work on.Just after June was born xmas 20022002 Before hubby cut his hair2004 ish Easter2003 ish2004ish2003ish2003 when Junie was a babyPregnant with JimiWhen I did childcare at playtimeSSo many people we don't see anymore, and children that have grown.  Cuteness that is now teenager ish.  I made a painting of this, unfortunately it is in Mexico. Junie and Daddy being silly.When Junie was still an Angel. After we redid the kitchen floor.So much love in that house. In the beginning we had fixed up the house into 2 separate living areas and then my mom actually lived with us too. We had 9 people living there.such a cutie pieBig Easter event with children that are now grown up and on their own. When Jimi was new. After the new floor in the dining area. Took out the ugly carpet. Our house when it was up for sale the first time. Junie helping bring home Jimi from the hospital. Xmas 2006, my cutie pie santa clause. daddy getting huggies. After the kitchen was fixed up. Before we sold and moved. The one thing I do NOT MISS. That road. Cutie pie Jimi. Feb 2007, What we looked like right before me moved, minus my husband who is taking the photo. Yes I am working through letting you go.  I know a new family is having all their own special experiences with you. We now have a home that is not nearly as interesting as you.  Not so many cubbies, and nooks, and crannies, hiding places, but it does have luxuries that you did not, and unfortunately we could not afford to upgrade for you at the time. Like central air, an irrigation system, a connected garage, and automatic garage door openers.  This is the 4th house I've owned, 3rd for E, but you were by far my favorite. Love you forever. Wish you well. Goodbye.PuertoVallarta Girl in Portland.[...]

Diatomaceous Earth - Day 27 - Liver Flukes?!


October 19, 2015Well I'm thinking I have Liver Flukes.  Ugly thing, but I did search for it and I seem to fall into the category of this. I checked my dookie last week and saw them (the word correction I use wants to correct that to cookie, um no).  Which means I may have a big fight in front of me.October 17, 2015On the good side -  my silly personality is really coming back after how many years? I lost it during college. You know about 4 or 5 months ago I was really wondering where my personality went. I was thinking what happened to my silly?  Well I've got it back. Yay!I do have light foundation on in this  mustache photo, but I think my hair and skin both look more youthful.March 13 2015September 17, 2015October 17, 2015On the left is another photo of me and my hubby last weekend at Harvey's Comedy Club in Portland, Oregon.  That night, every photo I took, I looked pretty good, it's been so long since that has happened. That was heavier makeup though.Below I've put together a few photos from this year. I think we both do look younger. My husbands face is not as droopy, the sinuses dried up. He's doing DE 1 tsp per day. For about 23 days.I'm keeping to this experiment. Today I took 4 more of the frozen castor oil to see if I can get more of the bad guys out. I'm still taking 1 tablespoon a day of DE, several hours after I take my required medicines for heart, bp, and thyroid, and plan to indefinitely, so this will be interesting.  My energy level is not too good though.I found a forum on curezone about liver flukes, lots of varying advice. haven't weighed lately,  I did spike back up to 188 then back down to 185.8 but I haven't weighed for a few days.[...]

Diatomaceous Earth Gave me hope - Day 23


I realize my math on how many days it has been is confusing, some days I'm writing about the day before and some days I'm talking about that current day.  Today is my 23rd day. I really thought it had been 4 weeks already, but I guess not.

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So since I upped my dosage to 1 tablespoon twice a day I got really sick. Also, I wasn't spacing the DE from when I take my thyroid medication, which apparently is very irresponsible.  Laziness did not work in my advantage there.   So then I got really backed up, did this frozen Castor oil treatment, passed a bunch of stuff that after research I identify as Liver Flukes and Liver Fluke Skins.  (these are parasites) The reason I know these are parasites and not some undigested food or something is because I did the whole check out your stool thing, after research learning how to go about it, and I poked into them with a plastic fork, they are very dense, hard, and like plastic pieces. The Liver Flukes look sort of like very large pieces of corn. The Liver Fluke Skins look like pieces of plastic. They look exactly like photos that other people have identified as Liver Flukes and Liver Fluke Skins.

This is a long process and I'm dedicated to getting better.

Good things that have been going on, my libido is stronger. I am more playful, even with fatigue I still have a sort of clarity that I haven't had for a long time. I had been wondering where my sense of humor went, I think that my pineal gland is clearing up or something.

Diatomaceous Earth Changed my personality - Day 21


So  I am still feeling like Crap!!!!!! and I think I know why. Everyone keeps telling me that if you take Thyroid medication do NOT take it close to the time you take your DE.   But I'm stubborn and lazy so I keep doing it. That could be why I feel terrible. I was feeling so terrible on Saturday, just like my normal Chronic Fatigue before I started this that I decided to lower my dosage to 1 time per day.  That didn't seem to make any difference, so either I really am coming down with something or these suckers are Dieing off YAY.   I think whatever parasite or virus I have are fighting back.   Plus I need to space out the DE from  my medication.An old Power Plant that we checked outThe reason I retitled this series to personality is because I am sick again, but still very calm and silly.  So there still are benefits, even though I'm sick detoxing, my skin is so much clearer. But my weight is only like 2 lbs lighter than when I started so hmmm.? Soon I am going to try this Caster Oil thing that cleans out your small intestine.  I'm just waiting for those capsules to freeze. They take FOREVER. Inside the old power plantMeanwhile, yesterday I got to spend the day with my eldest son Teal. He is so nice to be around. I'm so proud of him.  We talked all the time during our 2 hour drive there and back to White River Falls, in Tygh Valley Oregon.   Here are some photos. The water is murky because it was a hot day and the falls gets water from glacier runoff which picks up all the silt and apparently causes erosion. We were told from people who frequent the falls the water is clear when it is cold. Curse those warm days in October. Um no. It was a fantastic warm day, and back in Portland it was not quite as nice.lower view of the fallsThe problem was that since I was feeling so awful I had to take Tramadol again!!!! Nooooooooo. I am trying to feel good without it. The good news is that was the first day that I had to take Tramodol since I started DE. I'm sticking with it, because I have been assured that the detox will pass.[...]

Diatomaceous Earth Changed my life - Day 17 - been detoxing pretty bad


Yes I have been detoxing pretty bad, feeling fatigue, which is as bad as before I started the DE. But here is the thing, personality wise I feel clearer, happier, and better than before.  So you may want to know why I'm detoxing or what my detoxing is like.

First off I am experiencing detox symptoms because I increased my dosage of Food Grade Diatomaceous Earth faster than recommended. You are supposed to slowly increase your dosage, and I jumped to 1 teaspoon, twice a day after 1 week, and then 3 days after that I jumped to 1 tablespoon twice daily.  At 1 teaspoon, I really didn't feel anything, but about 3 to 4 days into the tablespoons I have been hit with weakness and a little constipation, which is unusual for me.  Next I am going to be trying to cleanes my small intestine with a method where you freeze caster oil capsules and take 4 or 5.  This way they stay frozen until they get into the small intestine. If you are interested in this I suggest researching before you try, some people are allergic to caster oil.

I haven't written much because well, I haven't been feeling as peppy in the morning as before.  But I am dedicated to this process because nothing is worse than doing nothing and losing hope.  And anyway, like I said, I feel like I have my personality back, and I only felt like this before when I took tramadol.

I weighed yesterday and I was going back down again. But I didn't weigh today.