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this journey is ending

2015-09-10T13:51:37.762-04:00

in 2006, i started this blog and launched myself into uncharted waters...over the years, i learned much about myself and met many real and interesting people....had my share of debates :) and did my share of fluffy cat posts :)and along my journey i meandered until i got tired....i got tired of fighting people i thought were on the same side as i....and the blogosphere changed and the internets changed....and i lost my love of blogging....and i lost people i loved....one thing i did learn quickly about blogging and the internets- relationships do form and bonds can be just as tight with 'cyber buddies' as in 'real life'....and i became a part of people's lives i never met face to face...and they mine...and i started losing them....bro tim, dan'l, spadoman....and it kind of cut the soul out of my words....i wander over here from time to time and the itch is sometimes there....but i can't blog here...this place with my memories...and my words have changed and grown and started to meander in a different direction....but this place is still here and will always be here as part of my heart....this is for my buddy- spadoman...When you wake upTurn your radio onAnd you'll hear this simple songThat I made upThat I made up for youWhen you're drivingTurn your radio upCause I can't sing loud enoughAll these daysTo get my message throughIf time is all I hadI'd waste it all on youEach day I'll turn it backIt's what the broken hearted-doI'm tired of talking to an empty spaceOf silences keeping me awakeWhen you marry and you look aroundI'll be somewhere in that crowdTorn up that it isn't meWhen we're older and the memories fadeI know I'll still feel the same, yeahFor as long as I liveAnd if time is all I hadI'd waste it all on youEach day I'll turn it backIt's what the broken hearted-doI'm tired of talking to an empty spaceOf silences keeping me awakeWon't you say my name one timePlease, just say my nameAnd if time is all I hadI'd waste it all on youEach day I'll turn it backIt's what the broken hearted-doI'm tired of talking to an empty spaceOf silences keeping me awakeIf time is all I hadI'd waste it all on youEach day I'll turn it backIt's what the broken hearted-doI'm tired of talking to an empty spaceOf silences keeping me awakeWon't you say my nameWhen the song is over? width="320" height="266" class="YOUTUBE-iframe-video" data-thumbnail-src="https://i.ytimg.com/vi/1uQyFZ68sTo/0.jpg" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/1uQyFZ68sTo?feature=player_embedded" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen>[...]



crankypants

2015-06-05T16:21:05.467-04:00

i had two great blog pals- dan'l and spadoman...i could email them daily and have epic rants and they would know just what to say to bring me around to sane again...i don't have them anymore to rely on so i tend to get myself into a pickle on social media now and again...i don't know why i bother to venture an opinion there...it isn't the right forum for me...but i'm a glutton for punishment...

i continue to have trouble wrapping my mind around how women, in particular, can be an adherent to christianity in our culture....mostly because most of us women have the freedom to choose in this country...no matter how nice the person is or how many good works they accomplish, christianity has the stigma of being a patriarchal and controlling religion....no matter how many good works done or how strong the faith- women will always be second class citizens....going to church with like minded people only perpetuates the cycle....

'oh my church doesn't teach that or believe that' well, according to your christian bible- it should....according to the christian bible- women are lesser than men....lgbt should not be tolerated....non christians will burn in hell for all eternity and on and on....and if you aren't reading that and having it preached to you- your church is cherry picking just as surely as the churches who are.....

anyway, i am glad that there are so many 'good' christians out there....i am glad that they are doing 'good works' and that they have strong belief and faith in their religion....and i am glad that the women in these churches are happy to be second class citizens....

i, for one. am not....oh, and i don't eat babies either....



human arrogance and white supremacy

2015-05-21T16:48:25.357-04:00

i know better than to log into facebook...i always get myself into trouble when i do.  firstly, if you post on facebook and you have friended me- i take that to mean that you welcome my perspective...i try to remain tactful and on point- especially if i disagree with your post...if you're posting for sympathy, generally i roll my eyes and keep moving...

anyone who follows me on facebook knows how much i love ricky gervais....i admire his talent and his big heart when it comes to animals...nothing angers him more than those who mistreat and abuse animals...i'm right there with him...right now- he is taking on the trophy hunters and the rampant killing by billionaires of the endangered species of big cats, rhinos, elephants, giraffes, etc....

as for me, well, i pick smaller game it guess...it really pisses me off that so many people view other animals as inferior to us simply because they don't build skyscrapers and speak english...well, they don't destroy the planet with their hubris and greed either...and when i hear folks talk about getting a pet and 'trying it out' to see if that animal is a 'good fit' like it's a shoe or a purse- it bugs me....something else that pisses me off is humans dumping pets on the streets or in the country- or even a shelter- because they can no longer take care of them or they are too much work...really?

would you do that to your child? your elderly relative? some would undoubtedly but most 'good people' change diapers for their children or loved one....clip their nails and cut their hair...find a sitter if they need to go away....feed them...so tell me again how an animal that shares our home and lives isn't the same as another human living in our house....

other species think and feel and have distinct personalities- i could list examples....we all know dolphins and whales are smart....we know that elephants are smart....pigs are highly intelligent...explain to me again why it's ok for us to adopt an animal but if we don't like it- we get rid of it....

i suppose there's no difference in white men believing that everyone else is inferior....



early summer

2015-05-04T16:27:29.409-04:00

i think of my buddy spadoman all of the time....he and his family became a part of the fabric of my life for many years and i miss him and his stories greatly....i miss having a 'cuppa' buddy to share and gripe with or commiserate or just chat...the weather has finally turned nice and the forsythia are blooming...trees are budding and the birds are singing....and we would trade haiku...

our amazing journey
twists and turns...seasons changing...
life from spring to frost....

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musings of a white woman in america on a cloudy day...

2015-04-27T18:29:50.011-04:00

i spend quite a bit of my time online reading and taking in other folks' thoughts and opinions...i have since i opened up to the internet almost 10 years ago....i have learned quite a bit about human nature and american culture that's for sure...

i am white...i can slice my ancestry anyway i want but i am white....i have never personally traced my ancestry- i only have anecdotal information about my heritage from my parents...but i feel the connection to the people who lived before me...i see my parents in me- from movements i make that i mimicked from them to the way i perceive the world...and i often wonder if other folks in my family tree did the same things...my parents learned it from somewhere...

i say that to say this- white folks may or may not want to have discussions about race but we really need to....this country was founded, as it stands today, by white people and the deck has always been stacked in whites' favor...white males, in particular...most do not want to see that...

so, i undertook to start learning a bit more about what poc think about certain topics...i keep tabs on the idle no more movement and i have 'the root' in my facebook feed for starters....and i read more real history....and i am on a different journey now...

i have never really felt a part of mainstream culture in this country...i am not really sure that there is one reason i could point to as to why...upbringing for sure...socioeconomic background....and while i will never feel the discrimination as a person of color or an lgbt person or non christian feels- i do know what it's like to be poor here....i cannot imagine having the other layers of bigotry on top of me...

just musings....



on the home front

2015-04-24T12:42:08.369-04:00

i feel that i am moving into a new phase of my life- and i suppose i really am....my father passed away almost 2 years ago already and we sold the fam's florida property and most recently their ny property....that was my childhood right there :) it's a weird feeling knowing i will never go to either place again and that that link to my past is gone with nothing left but memories...which is fine as i hadn't been to either place with any regularity for decades...

my mother will be gone this year i am sure...her health is fading and she doesn't care at this point if she goes on much further down the road....i write about it matter of factly but the truth is- it's ok...i had to work through many things years ago- not the least of which was losing my mother....she hasn't been 'my mom' for some time due to her physical health declining and we both have had to switch roles and try new ones on and figure out how to continue to have a relationship....and it's ok...

my cat is 15 years old and his years are winding down too...he is my friend and although we still have a few years yet, i know that at some point, i will have another decision to make....sigh...and it doesn't help that it's spitting snow and cold again....



silly season

2015-04-24T12:35:15.611-04:00

i haven't blogged about a presidential election since obama's first term....all in all, most things haven't changed....the right wing is still throwing nut jobs out there to scare people into voting 'the lesser of two evils' and we end up with a republican candidate in office anyway...

the left still will not listen....'work within the system we have' and all of that bullshit....they've been saying that since bush's second term....seriously...'we must vote for the best known candidate or we'll hand the election to the right'....uh huh....and they will not listen to the accounts of voter suppression tactics countrywide nor will they comment on campaign finance reform...

because... VOTE!!!!

voting to them is the end all and be all of civic duty....we must vote but only for the big money democrat because that's the only one with a shot of winning in this country....and it isn't that i disagree with their logic per se....i understand the desperation because i was there once too...

then- i realized something...we have 'one ring to rule them all'....meaning one ruling class...the 1% if you will....i realized that the deck has been cut in their favor- not ours....and that's true of the voting/election system as well...we get the candidates that they choose for us to vote for....we get statewide election systems that are bought and paid for and slant in the direction of their choosing- not ours....and this country believes the way that it does because of their media messages....

and the left refuses to see it still....despite overwhelming evidence over the past several elections...the rank and filers won't pressure their democratic party into a more progressive/liberal candidate for anything....they throw money at elections and sign petitions for causes but won't pressure their local, state, federal party into more progressive candidates....they won't agitate within their communities or states for a cleanup of the election system.....

instead, they berate and badger and bully people like me into voting for madame clinton over martin o'malley....they think nothing of the fact that there are not other candidates to vie in a primary....they don't give a shit that jill stein is a woman running for president but she isn't invited to any debates...expect that from the right but isn't the left supposed to be better?

it is THE reason i left the democratic party...physically and financially...i repeatedly contacted democratic candidates and the party...no response....and the democrats online became increasingly rabid and nasty- much like they are now on facebook....

folks are not seeing that we are already in another civil war....it's us against them....two party system....we like to compare it to a game of football but it isn't....it's more like the actual, physical civil war we had once already...in fact, many americans are armed to the teeth and ready to go...ready to go all out and start shooting other americans....and what the left isn't realizing, we have presidential candidates calling for armed insurrection against the govt....and religious right folks arming militias....and our gov't has unlimited powers to detain americans and torture them indefinitely without needing due process....

but by all means go and vote for madame clinton....



reality check

2015-04-14T16:30:03.076-04:00

i spent a few years blogging and investigating via the internet....and with each piece of information, my mom and i put together what we saw happening to this country and what we thought would happen....and i did a fair amount of writing and pleading and yelling at people to try and make them 'do something'....and i couldn't understand why....i still have some bouts of frustration about it...

but i understand a bit better now....i understand the bewilderment and the anger and the fear....the waves of hopelessness and powerlessness and helplessness...i have felt it too....and i also feel bitterness and anger at times at my country and at my fellow americans...for ruining my country and my planet for greed's sake....

mom and i talked about what we could expect out of the future...the impending collapse of our entire system- economics; water wars; food shortages...a new civil war based on ideology of right versus left instead of geography of north and south- although, the two are not mutually exclusive...the power structure versus the rest of us....and it's coming....

and we are here at the start of another silly season and there are many of us who are being brainwashed and/or bullied to vote for people who are not in our best interests...we are being served up a big heaping plate of 'lesser of two evils' casserole again...and no one who spews that nonsense offers to hold their party accountable....they don't offer to hold their incumbents or their candidates to a higher standard....they don't agitate for a better way....they believe that their vote is sacred and once it is cast- they have done what they needed to do for their country....

and they bully people with integrity...people who understand that this country is over and has been for some time....people who understand that the election system, and every system, has been corrupted and co-opted in order to maintain the status quo....to give the illusion of choice and democracy....to keep us fighting each other for scraps....

we have come to the end of the line with this grand experiment....soon, we will have no choice but to pick a side- oppressed or oppressor....and our votes won't matter then either....



life's journey

2015-04-02T11:10:35.779-04:00

i visited a couple of friends this week from my hometown and as i was driving back home through the rain, i teared up a bit too.....change comes hard....these last few years for me have been good and bad- happy and sad....i have been thinking about the past and the present and a bit about the future and have had a difficult time organizing my thoughts around my feelings...

my friends and i have been dealing with ageing parents and the issues facing them while processing the life changing realities of mortality and loss....watching parents struggle with illnesses brought on by life choices that were normal when they were young is not easy....straddling the line between maintaining their basic human adult autonomy and dignity and taking over daily tasks is tough....

and when you look into a pair of eyes that no longer recognize you after two decades...well, a piece of your soul is torn....

my life's journey has been turning to face a past i tried to outrun....reconciling relationships i had tried to sever and navigating the world of adult children and ailing parents....i am not alone....but it isn't easy....



dusting off the cobwebs

2015-04-02T10:54:55.388-04:00

i haven't felt inspired to write in quite some time....life has a way of sucking the life out of you...significant losses rendered me mute...no one wants to read 'debbie downer' posts...it has been statistically proven :)

used to use this space for large chunks of political postings...and i may still from time to time....but i miss my blog buddies who have passed....i miss their voices and their spirits and their friendship....blogging for me cannot be the same...i suppose that is what life is all about- the slow/fast march of time....and changes....



just my ideas on race

2013-07-14T20:57:40.891-04:00

whew! hotter than hades this summer...and i don't mean just the weather...the simmering pot of racism has finally bubbled over and spilled all over the stove...no, america doesn't believe in 'melting pots' more of a vanilla milkshake...i am white...let's be honest, i resemble casper's girlfriend i am that white...i grew up in rural places and i didn't mix it up a lot...there really weren't many folks of color in my community in upstate new york and when i lived in rural florida- well, the people of color 'knew their place' and were consigned to shacks on the other side of town over the railroad tracks...the town fathers decided to throw the anti segregationists a bone and our middle school was built 'in the black section' of town and we were bused over every day so i actually got to see where the black folks lived...i lived in a trailer home so i figured their homes looked quite a bit like mine...my father's mother's family was native american....but he grew up poor white american and his whole family- with the exception of his youngest sister- served in the armed forces...my father can't stand republicans...the entire rest of his family were republicans...go figure...i say this because we have an opportunity...let's lay our cards out on the table...white people don't like people of color because1) they fear them2) they feel that they are inferiorwhat other reasons are there?  isn't that what it boils down to?  'but i am not a racist' most white folks claim- perhaps not but we white folks have to start by understanding a few things- and i am by no means an expert these things have occurred to me over a lifetime (so far) of learning and listeningwhite folks have 'white privilege' - yes, yes we do...our whole culture was set up to favor white males...now, that doesn't make all white males racist but like it or not- the culture still favors white malesit also favors white females over people of color in general although we ladies have our work cut out for us in the civil liberties departmentwhite people 'don't get' black culture...well, we aren't meant to- it's their culture...we have spent centuries excluding them from ours...white people need to understand that WE excluded people of color from the mainstream white culture...we really can't get our knickers in a twist over that...white folks believe that people of color are lazy welfare moochers...they should 'get a job' and 'speak english' and whatnot...well, since the pecking order is white men, white women, people of color....guess who generally don't get hired? guess who has to find other means of supporting themselves?people of color should behave as 'normal' families and get married and settle down and raise kids...they should stop getting put in jail and having kids all over the place...yep...probably more stable for them but many of them do...surprise! many people of color work multiple jobs just to make ends meet and care for their kids and most of the folks taking advantage of our social services are poor white folks predominately in the south...again, that white prism to look through...i was re-reading parts of 'league of the iroquois' by lewis henry morgan and as i read the passages that were written in the 1850's, i realized how that mentality still resonates with many in america today...the idea that anyone other than white folks are 'savages' who aren't as smart or innovative or 'good' as white folks...white folks have attempted to obliterate native cultures, african cultures and latino cultures on this continent and force them to assimilate to what? consumerism? capitalism? wanton resource taking?the issue isn't so much with the overt racists in this country...the issue is with the many of us who aren't honest about how we feel about people of color and why...why is it that most[...]



what are we celebrating again?

2013-07-04T15:16:55.384-04:00

ahhh....july 4th...national day off from work so drink beer and blow shit up day! really, why else would americans 'celebrate' our "independence"? the united states of white america celebrates with flag waving and cookouts and copious amounts of beer and fireworks...but many do not...if you take a look- a hard look at what we are 'celebrating'...it becomes less of a feel good event...i suspect that's why most americans prefer not to...

my father's mother and her family were seneca from the iroquois nation...this united states of white america we live in was taken from them by white folks through deception and force...now, i don't know if the native peoples would have seemed so noble to me had things worked out differently- but coming on the heels of the recent civil rights loss for people of color and women in this country...i think i may continue to believe it to be better...

this country was built on a foundation of rich, white privilege and on the suffering of indigenous peoples and people of color- blacks, hispanics, asians....it was built on the backs of poor people for the benefit of the few and that continues to this day- and more and more of us are clearing the fog to see it...

it's uncomfortable...

i am happy that the lgbt folks are making strides but as i continue to see liberties we have taken for granted slip away...i am more acutely aware than ever that america has no real reason to celebrate our independence from tyranny...when i see the rich, white men of the republican party blatantly disregarding the will of their constituents and the corporately purchased 'representatives' of the democratic party mutely standing by to protect their own best interests...i wonder- what tyranny are we independent from?

how can we celebrate our 'independence day' when we have allowed the same type of people to take over our american government that we rose up against in britain?  i realize that i am looked at as a killjoy at best and a tinfoil hat wearer derogatorily....but if i am going to fly any flag- it will be this one...






bunnies and foxes and deer, oh my!

2013-06-20T19:22:49.204-04:00

yeah- so i would like to remind any readers left out there about my extreme dislike of summer...i hate it...it's too warm; there are too many bugs; it's way too noisy with cars, motorcycles, kids and lawn care....did i mention the noise?

different crop of bunnies this year but they still like the clover in the yard and my father still makes friends with them...he still hates the grackles and bluejays but i have cut way down on their numbers by switching feeds...unfortunately, the squirrels and chipmunks also enjoy the sunflower seeds- so we need to move the feeder...mr. or ms. fox is back on the scene scaring the innocent bunnies and my father stands guard to scare it away...

oh, yes, the deer...they like to use my yard as a superhighway- cutting through on their way from somewhere to somewhere else...and a couple of nights ago i saw a doe so big i could probably have slipped a saddle on her and gone for a ride...did not put much of a garden in this year...not because of the wildlife but because of the time constraints and weather...

i currently have potatoes, onions and garlic with some peas coming...tomatoes and peppers still in flats and no squash in yet....

most of my summer has so far been spent in cleaning and painting my downstairs apartment for the old one...my tenants moved out in april and he came back from wintering in florida with his sister- in may...he's in good spirits and as good of health as can be expected from someone who abused himself for 60+ years but he can't do stairs very well and i have a split level...we are working on selling the properties...this has been a big adjustment in a short time but he'll roll with the punches or not...it needs to happen...

his new apartment has a quiet backyard with a little flower garden he can work on if he wants and we can put his feeders out- there are already lots of birds...it has a little porch he can sit in winter or summer and my mom and sister are upstairs...i really don't like dealing with getting old...it totally stinks...

no bunnies, foxes or deer in the new yard...but life could be worse...not everyone gets a second chance with life or with rebuilding burned bridges...and he has had both...



countdown to the new year

2012-12-20T19:44:33.728-05:00

2012 kicked my ass...i almost prayed that the mayans got it right...i sincerely hope that 2013 is better...going into the winter solstice yuletide season, i am not in a festive mood- as i suspect many aren't...i have been plagued by allergies that are aggravated by the weather change and haven't gotten better and my entire life has been turned upside down by my family...many stressors from many angles and i hope to start knocking some of them off this coming year...

there were moments of positivity though- i had a small harvest from the backyard this summer and am looking forward to next season as even better...i am ending the year on a more creative note- many crochet plans and minor home renovations and redecoration plans on the horizon...

life isn't perfect and some years are better than others...i can only look ahead and hope that the future isn't as bleak as it seems to be shaping up for...

happy winter solstice and a happy new year....



just my thought...

2012-11-10T21:18:40.767-05:00

i have nothing against veterans...in fact, i am very vocal in demanding actual support for returning military personnel as well as veterans...i believe that it is shameful that we, as a country, put them in battle and then say 'fuck 'em' when they come home...they deserve to be paid properly and they deserve top of the line health care- mental as well as physical...

i am against the glorification of the military though...the 'freedom isn't free' bullshit really wears on my last nerve...the last time i checked- we were the ones starting shit around the world- from the 'korean conflict' to the present day iraq and afghanistan...these battles don't keep us free- they keep us in debt and they kill our precious men and women...the military doesn't keep us free- they keep the war profiteers rich at their expense...

the people who keep us free and who have fought for our freedom have been ordinary citizens- and yes, military personnel have joined them- who have put their lives on the line in order to fight for the civil liberties that we all take for granted...the citizens who fought to end slavery in the 19th century and the women who fought for our gender's right to simply vote; the blacks and whites who worked together to end lynching and for the right for black men and women to vote safely; the lgbt folks and their allies who are continuing the fight for marriage equality- and the occupy movement and the civil liberties union who are on the front lines daily fighting to keep our constitution taped together...

i am certainly not taking anything away from veterans' day- the folks who fought these battles deserve the honor and recognition- but i think that we need to be honest with ourselves and know that we flag wave and give kudos to the military out of guilt and not pride...



clarion call

2012-11-06T14:30:05.272-05:00

this may come as a complete surprise to some- perhaps not- but i am a patriot...yep...i am old fashioned and follow the traditions of my family and i believe that the idea of america can be realized...in short, if you didn't know better, you might think i was a republican...they firmly believe that democrats are liberal heathens who don't give a damn about god and country and believe that they have cornered the market on patriotism and traditional values...

i am here to say YOU ARE WRONG....

what we sane folks need to start doing is actually voicing those words- YOU ARE WRONG...because the republican party is wrong...people who vote republican or libertarian are wrong...now, i know i'll take a wrath of shit for that- but it's true...

consider the right wing platform:

make the rich richer
take away any and all safety nets
take away affordable health care
take away women's rights
take away worker's rights
steal elections through voter suppression and fraud
take away civil liberties
deregulate, privatize and put profits over people every time
marginalize and discriminate against women, non whites and gays

the right in this country are at war- they are at war with the rest of us...anyone who doesn't lock step with their ideology...we cannot continue to allow them to 'agree to disagree' it is far too late for that...i am not being melodramatic i am speaking the truth...one only has to listen to the propaganda from the media- not just fox noise- or watch a network tv show thinly disguised but propaganda too...one only has to listen or read comments by republican voters who buy into the rhetoric...

it is not enough to vote...the right is taking over state and local governments through stealing elections and redistricting and they are passing restrictive laws against women and other minorities...they are passing shoot to kill gun laws, open carry and concealed carry laws...the corporates have their own security forces...the militias are traditionally rightwing hate groups and even the bible thumpers have their soldiers for jesus...

seriously- folks....putting your heads in the sand doesn't make the problem go away and neither does one election...these people have been fighting the rest of us for over 30 years....they have set aside their guerilla tactics and are openly engaging and we sit back and take it...it won't be over in one battle or 10- we must always be vigilant because the moment we don't take these folks seriously- this country is done...and we are close to it now...

so- i will say- if you vote for any right wing party- you are wrong...you are a selfish, paranoid, fearful, racist, misogynistic, homophobic bigot who only cares about profit over people- and you are wrong...



politics, american style

2012-10-17T11:43:55.953-04:00

i haven't posted much about politics lately- mostly due to my cynical attitude that human nature will be human nature and it sure hasn't changed much since humans allegedly evolved...but i feel a wee more optimistic these days for a variety of reasons...more people are 'getting it'- not simply about politics but about the world we are living in today...

i up tidbits of info around the intertubes and more folks are gardening, recycling, reducing and reusing...more folks take global climate change as fact and are working within their communities and states to change it...more folks are calling the right wing out on their lies and bullshit and even though the squeaky wheel of rhetoric is the only one heard...people are taking on people in their own lives and calling foul...more folks realize that conservatism and unregulated capitalism has ruined america and indeed, the entire planet...

more folks see that the right is trying to create global feudalism and they realize that they are not part of the 'haves'...

i could certainly post like i used to- refuting and documenting the craziness and lies point by point...but i don't believe i need to...more folks are fact checking and sharing than ever before and much quicker and more efficiently than i ever could...

my life these days consists of worrying about my economic future and the uncertainty of hubby's job- much like everyone else...and taking care of old people...not an easy task with the mess the rethugs have made of medicare and their pseudo-privatizing and mandatory drug plans....it's a nightmare along the lines of HMOs and private insurance red tape...getting old isn't easy in america....but you can rest assure i will have my ducks in a row...or not because i don't have offspring to leave a mess to...

anywhoo, gearing up for another year of old people issues and hopefully not conservative republican ones... 



love tom jones

2012-12-20T19:46:09.445-05:00

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from a post from a buddy on facebook

2012-10-04T22:53:12.020-04:00

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 there is a 47% out there and they continually live against their best interests and continually put their paranoid, fearful ideologies ahead of the best interests of all...unfortunately, these are our fellow americans...what needs to happen is for more of the sane of us to get our liberal heads out of our liberal asses and stop believing that simple voting is the way to go...what we need to do is take back our communities and states from the whack jobs who have managed to put themselves into positions of power and force this country back to a place that resembles a representative democracy...we need to demand that this faux war on terror stop just as surely as we demand the wars overseas to stop and for our american civil liberties to be reinstated...we need to demand real election reform and work at it from the local and state levels to force our system into a fair one...we need to stop pooh poohing the crazies in our midst and take them on in our own lives and call people out on their lies...to do this takes effort and courage and knowing the FACTS- one person cannot do this alone...yes, we are still here supporting but if we don't take responsibility too then this country is still hanging by half a thread and it's going to fall completely- just my humble opinion



from one american...to the others...

2012-09-04T21:02:41.135-04:00

we have lost our way...on the eve of the dumbocratic convention- on the heels of the rethuglican convention- i say that we may as well get our heads out of our asses and realize that our country is over...no, not just 'the dream' of middle class homeownership with the kids and the dog but the idea of americabecause, quite simply, we have ceased to be americans...we squabble over whether or not gay folks should marry; whether or not women should have reproductive rights; whether or not we should provide affordable health care to millions of fellow citizens and meanwhile, our civil liberties have been stripped away and our constitution shredded...and you probably think i am crazy- but i'm not...i blogged about this right here while cheney/rumsfeld and ashcroft/gonzalez ran the show and i even blogged that once the genie was out of the bottle- there's no stuffing him back in...and, apparently, i was correct...the biggest issue i have is all of the folks holding public office or working in local, state and federal government positions...all of the folks who serve in our legitimate armed services and our mercenary ones...all of the folks who line up to vote each election time- or work the elections...all of them are americans...each and every one...each and every person who wants to 'support our troops' is an american...each and every flag waving patriot is an american...and with the exception of a few- very few folks- most americans are either oblivious to life outside of their personal bubble or they condone the coup that took place in this country 12 years ago...that means left as well as right...look, i am guilty of the 'good god! think of the alternative!' mode of voting- trust me when i say that i would never willingly vote right on most issues...trust me when i say that i would not vote willingly left on most issues right now either because the left is part of the problem...the biggest issue i have is that americans have 'outsourced' their citizenship as easily as the capitalists created a global economy...we let our constitution go with nary a peep because we believed we only had 2 amendments to worry about... we cannot be american if america no longer exists...what have we become? when we live in a country that decries china for human rights violations but whose president CURRENTLY has the power to indefinitely detain, torture and murder american citizens on american soil or abroad- and fellow americans tune out and tune in to the latest episode of 'jersey shore'...do we have the right to be proud of this country?there are some good parts to america still but the rot started from inside...it started with us...with 'we, the people'...we can blame the politicians and we can blame the 'one percenters' but really, we are to blame because we, the people, did not say no...did not stand up and say- not in my name...we chose to keep our homes and cars and big screen tvs and hide in our mcmansions while innocent folks thousands of miles away were blown to smithereens by drones in the name of profit...i would love to see some occupy footage of americans standing up for civil liberties- so feel free to share links...so far, it's been mostly holding bankers' feet to the fire to get our money back...priorities, priorities...[...]



i shake my head

2012-07-27T21:06:18.223-04:00

fresh out of ideas as to what else to do...having divorced myself from any political party- i cannot wrap my mind around what america is...of course, i have tried to wrap my mind around that for some years now- hence the blog...

i don't even know where to start...in this country at any given moment american citizens can be held and detained indefinitely without access to consul or even letting loved ones know...in this country at any given moment american citizens can be searched without a warrant...in this country at any given moment in any airport american citizens are strip searched and body scanned on another american's authority...in this country- there are 'lists'- lists of suspect words and people and organizations...in this country americans beat and torture other people while imprisoned- and daily in our domestic lives...in this country americans kill other americans by all means and apparently, some want to kill as many of us as they can...

who exactly are the terrorists here? there aren't foreign terrorists after us as the officials would have us believe- no, the terrorism comes from us...i don't keep up much with politics these days- most of what i follow are the 'regular everyday folks' trolling around and discussing hot button issues and i really have no regard for what passes as half of america....how can the folks on the right be taken seriously? guns in one hand and a bible in the other these folks can't string a single grammatically correct sentence together while blathering on about how english is america's official language...these are the same people who don't believe that global climate change is real and believe that anyone who is non white, non affluent and non christian should really just die and leave the planet to them...

both sides of the equation fail to see the severity of our situation...human nature will never change and we could weather political idiocy and economic disaster if our planet wasn't getting ready to extinct us...these folks who want to preserve 'our way of life' are apparently not getting the bigger picture- our earth is becoming uninhabitable...very soon there won't be enough water for us all or enough food for us all...

and the 'morans' on the right- republicans, tea partiers, libertarians- whatever 'you people' call yourselves these days- well, they will vote for the mitt romneys to take the water and the food- and he'll trickle it on down to them...




snow in july

2012-07-17T20:45:52.297-04:00

looks that way on my back deck since i primed it...i can really see why folks scrap the whole thing and start over...it's pretty tedious painting the railing...but 2 quarts of primer and 2 gallons of paint is way cheaper in the budget and it's my elbow grease- so, there ya are...luckily my father already scraped it...i took advantage of him being away at my cousin's for a week to paint- this way he'll have a nice porch to sit and watch the bunnies on when he gets back...

he'll be gone for another few days next week too- so, i'll take advantage of that and dig up my sister's yard and mine and transplant a few things...ahh....heat and humidity....it's my thought that if i am going to be hot and miserable anyway i may as well accomplish something...sunblock and water and away i go....



bunnies in my backyard

2012-07-08T17:29:30.139-04:00

so, my mother says to me the other day "we're old.  your dad is old and i am getting older" to which i said 'yep'...it's funny that one day you just wake up and realize that you are getting older and that your parents are old...i used to write often about topics that my mom would have me research- we were great collaborators and now, well, we are both of the opinion that it isn't worth it...we know enough about what is happening and human nature to realize that as a planet- we're fucked...not as many folks know that i have a dad...i mean i suppose folks would figure that i came from somewhere but i haven't often mentioned him...like all family relationships- it's simply complicated...i don't shy away from the fact that my dad is an alcoholic and my fam and i have been mostly estranged from him for the majority of my life- although lived together in the same house for many years...he wasn't terribly nice for years and treated us pretty shabbily and abusively- and so, the estrangement...that's the simple part...the complicated part comes from the fact that the fam as a whole has always been poor...and the parents never divorced so here i am as the oldest playing monkey in the middle...until recently...i moved my dad into my house...he's old and probably should have died last summer from a slight stroke and a bout with pneumonia and colitis...but he has good genes and me so here he is- wobbly and decrepit and here...my mom made the move 12 years ago with my sister and it took her a bit to adjust and now, i am going through the adjustment again with him...i have said to folks that dealing with old parents is like herding cats and it's true...a delicate dance between telling them what to do and trying to maintain their dignity as adult and parent...my mother calls me bossy :) it's funny because there is such a difference between them in the way that they see the world and the way that they remember things...and the way that their minds work- and at the same time they believe the same way about politics and the state of the world and have come to those conclusions separately...having been much closer to my mother and having had the opportunity to get to know her as a person and not just my mother- i can see why they were drawn to each other in the first place- and having gone through a lot of my own baggage from their relationship and grieving the loss of what i believed i had missed out on as a family- it is easier for me to help him out now that he needs it...i had no intention of doing so...but here i am ...because of two people who met and married and stayed that way in and out of love and abuse and hate- and now, old age...my father spends a large chunk of his time on my back deck...smoking and watching the bunnies and the neighbors...mostly the bunnies...he watches out over them and the robins and just sits like a lizard in the sun...he really likes heat which is why he loves florida and he will never be able to go back there to live again...or to his other house 60 miles from here...he is here to stay...which i suppose is good for the bunnies as there is a fox in the neighborhood and my father is ready to do battle with it to protect the bunnies...he hates that fox probably as much as he hates republicans and black people...yep....life is a strange journey...[...]



going to be unpopular for this

2012-05-25T18:37:43.107-04:00

i get annoyed by memorial day...not because i believe that we shouldn't respect the military folks- but because i believe that we should respect them while they are alive...and also we already have veteran's day but that's a different post...

i do not believe that we should memorialize and celebrate people dying in war...and with the exception of world war 2- there hasn't been a war since that was fought for america's protection...pre-emptive war does not count as protection...it's lives squandered for war profiteering...

and spare me the 'you don't understand' speeches- i have several uncles that have served from world war 2 on down...and one is a career navy officer who recently became a chaplain...i also have several close friends who served...

memorial day isn't about rah, rah, rah flag waving...that's what july 4th is for...it is solemn remembrance for those who gave their lives fighting for what they believed was right...i find it annoying that so many hijack that thought for political and financial gain...

we need to do away with memorial day by doing away with the senseless killing of our military personnel...period....



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2012-05-19T21:43:29.312-04:00