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Updated: 2017-07-30T00:57:39.936-07:00


Mourning For America


Nobody knows when an accident is going to change their life and as more Americans continue the slide into poverty you would think there would be more compassion for their fellow man. Unfortunately, you would be wrong.I love how baggers and dittoheads babble on about how government workers are lazy, overpaid, couldn't get a real job if they had to and every one of them that becomes unemployed is better for the taxpayers, yet complain about how long it takes when they have to do anything at a government office.  Or that people are abusing food stamps and don't really need them.  Then within the last few days reports of rural suicides increasing amid Medicaid cuts and a story like this comes along and they still can't make the f****ing connection between penalizing people (An 18 page application? One would think Texas purposely makes it difficult for anyone to collect aid.) by reducing or eliminating services for those who don't have the political clout to defend themselves and the despair that causes people to kill themselves and their families.  These are not isolated incidents and there will be more of them as more people feel they have no way out.The powers behind the throne have successfully conned gullible Americans into demanding that the poor, the disabled and the elderly should pay the price so the rich won't have to contribute while they rob this country blind.  All the while never realizing that the problems didn't exist until the powers that be needed a distraction as they turn America into a third world country. Like a majority of the world's population my financial situation deteriorates every day.  If you receive SSI (as I am stuck doing until my appeal goes through) you are not allowed to have more than $674 a month under any circumstances.  Otherwise two months after you made the extra few dollars they reduce your benefits until the overpayment is taken care of.  Funnily enough it does not work the other way around. If they underpay you they are not obligated to make up the difference.After I was declared disabled I continued collecting unemployment while I looked for work that wouldn't aggravate my disability.  Unemployment was deducted from the $674 to make sure I didn't get ahead.  In August I started suffering from trigeminal neuralgia in addition to my disability and stopped collecting unemployment as I was no longer able to look for work while electrical shocks were stabbing me in the face every few minutes.  Since SSI runs two months behind I didn't start collecting the full $674 from them until November.  This means I was underpaid by $157 in August, $236 in September and $312 in October.My rent is $475.  Other bills include utilities, car insurance and the student loan that was turned over to a debt recovery company.  Those nice people added $50k in fees and interest for a grand total of $148k and continually want to know when and how much I will pay them each month.  Anyone with basic math skills can tell that my income is less than my outgo.  Fortunately for me my landlady is of the saint variety and deferred October's rent until after the first of the year when hopefully I can start making payments to bring me current.  She isn't even charging interest.This arrangement was based on the assumption that SSI would be making up the difference as the months passed and they could tell that I had been making less than $674.  Well, you know what they say about assuming. I went to the Social Security office to find out when they would credit me the underpayments since they were so good at penalizing me for overpayments that occurred when the calendar month and unemployment weeks didn't match.  After half an hour of trying to explain that I hadn't made $674 for the last few months I finally realized they weren't going to fix the underpayments.  Panic started to set in, my voice started to rise and polite behavior proceeded to go the way of the Dodo bird.   I barely made it to my car before saying thi[...]

The Stupid, It Burns


I don't tweet, I find it stupid and a waste of time.  There is nothing going on in my life, or quite a few other people's, that needs to be posted for the world to see every other minute.  And I certainly wouldn't want to post anything that harms another person or reveals thoughts that are better left unsaid.
At 2:29 p.m. ET, UT’s Lauren E. Pierce wrote: “Y’all as tempting as it may be, don’t shoot Obama. We need him to go down in history as the WORST president we’ve EVER had! #2012.”

Pierce, the president of the College Republicans at UT Austin, told ABC News the comment was a “joke” and that the “whole [shooting incident] was stupid.” Giggling, she said that an attempted assassination would “only make the situation worse.”
That an idiot from Texas would post something like this less than a week away from the 48th anniversary of a sitting President assassinated in Texas, boggles the mind.   I, along with most people alive at that time, know exactly where I was when I heard that President Kennedy had been shot and killed.  I may have been seven years old, but like most of the people in the United States at that time, I will never, ever, forget how traumatized we were as a nation.  

Ms. Pierce's behavior is wrong on so many levels that one wonders exactly what they are, or not, teaching at the University of Texas.  It makes me wonder if anyone from the state of Texas should be allowed to hold any office with the title of President.(image)

Bumper Snickers


I saw this the other day and it made me laugh.

Almost as much as this one.

Son of A


It is hard to find a joke today without a dirty word or two in it, but here is one:

Two tall trees, a birch and a beech, are growing in the woods.

A small tree begins to grow between them, and the beech says to the birch, 'Is that a son of a beech or a son of a birch?'

The birch says he cannot tell, but just then a woodpecker lands on the sapling.

The birch says, 'Woodpecker, you are a tree expert. Can you tell if that is a son of a beech or a son of a birch?'

The woodpecker takes a taste of the small tree and replies, 'It is neither a son of a beech nor a son of a birch.  It is, however, the best piece of ash I have ever poked my pecker into.

Now wipe that smile off your face..

Thanks L.

Proper Manners Around The President


Republicans seem to have forgotten that there are protocols when you deal with the President, such as respect.  They demanded it for the Chimp, they can offer the same respect for the current President.  It has always been considered rude to interrupt the President of the United States, just like it is considered rude to interrupt the Queen. allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="" title="YouTube video player" width="480">
I am so tired of all the crap.


As You May Have Guesed


Mom passed away.  It was two weeks and one day ago but I've been too devastated to post.  I have her obituary half finished and just can't seem to pull it together.  October 14, 2010 at 5:25 in the morning. What makes the time so interesting is that is the same time Dad died.The week before she passed I was frantically trying to locate my brothers to let them know, but only one responded.  K called the day before she died.   K, I want you to know that her face lit up when you were talking to her.  She had this bright inner glow when she heard your voice.  The hearing is the last to go, you were a lucky man.  Thank you for calling, but please don't be a stranger.I can't believe how much I miss her, we lived together for 33 of my 54 years and now all I have is a big empty space.  Who would have thought that would happen?  I ran away from home and joined the Army when I was 18 and she packed my bags when noticed I was making preparations to leave.  All the anger and resentment I felt being stuck with her as she aged has disappeared.  As with my father the last words we ever spoke to each other were "I love you."The Friday before she passed I came out of the bathroom and found her on the floor of her room.  It's the only time I didn't hear her fall.  Edie and I gt her back into bed and I called the hospice nurse to let her know.  Mom was staring vacantly off into space and I thought she was leaving then, but all of a sudden her eyes cleared up and she turned and grabbed my arm. She made sure she had eye contact and said "I love you."  I said "I love you too Mom" and she said "No, I LOVE you" and drifted off never to make verbal contact again.  The next thing I knew all six dogs flew into the room and from that point on Sha Shai only left her side to eat and relieve herself.  She stayed with mom until the mortuary people asked if I could move her so they could take mom out of the house.The hospice people were great, unfortunately their recommendation for the mortuary has inflicted mental trauma and emotional pain in a way that I wasn't expecting.  From the first meeting I expressed the necessity of getting the death certificate as soon as possible so that I could file for a small life insurance policy and pay for her cremation.  I can't afford to take her back to California to bury her, but I can take her ashes and have them interred in Dad's grave.This past Wednesday I called the funeral place and asked about the death certificate because after being unemployed for so long while I cared for her, I now don't make enough to pay my portion of the rent and other debts at the beginning of November.  That's when the crematorium  told me I had an outstanding balance of $650 that had to be paid before they would release the certificate to me.  The crematorium is holding my mother's body as ransom.  I was stunned.I have called every agency and support group I could and there is no help out there at this point in time.  I informed the hospice people of what was going on and they were as shocked as I was and the social worker said she had talked to the crematory owner and he would be calling me back.  It's been three days and I've called and left messages to no avail.  I'm about to lose everything and the disrespect to my mother is painful in a way I can barely describe.On Thursday I borrowed my roommate's car and drove to Carson City to visit the Vital Records Office where I spent $11 of my last $12 and got a certified copy from there and then mailed in the claim form.  It takes 7 - 10 business days for them to resolve the claim and send the money.  Unless I can get extensions on the automatic withdrawals, I will be in trouble before the money reaches me.  And even  then I have to worry about the California tax lien.  The fun never ends.I[...]

Please, Please, Please


N and K it is time to call your mother.  She has had nothing to eat or drink since Friday, has refused all pain meds and exists in a twilight hoping to hear your voices one last time. Even in her semi to mostly unconscious state she has made it clear that she wants to hear from you again.  It may be one lonely tear, but it happens every time we ask her if there is anything else we can do for her.

I beg of you, let bygones be bygones and help the woman who gave you birth, wiped the tears from your eyes when you were young and has loved you every single day that you have been in existence, to hear  your voices again.  Can you please grant her this solace?  The last thing to go is the hearing and all you have to do is let her hear your voice and even if you don't feel it (for which there is no reason I can understand), tell her you love her.  Three eight four nine three four one in the seven seven five area code.


Update:  Hospice believes that this is why she is still hanging on, she is waiting to hear from you and know that you are alright.  Please just let mom pass on in dignity and peace.  Please.(image)

With A Sad And Heavy Heart


A few weeks ago mom had to be admitted to the hospital by way of the emergency room.  She was suffering from uncontrolled bleeding and had no control over her bowels.  During her one week stay a mass was discovered in her bladder during one of the many tests she was forced to endure.

Since she is eighty years old her wishes and mine were that no extraordinary measures be taken.  She is in the wonderful care of hospice and her treatments are palliative in nature.  I cannot begin to describe the agony I feel.  Every day I watch more of her slip away.  Shai Shai only leaves her side if Shadow is there to keep her company while Shai takes care of her bodily functions.  Hospice feels Mm has a few weeks, but the dogs don't think so and I trust their judgment more.

Mom is barely eating (jello, soup and apple cider), her ability to communicate is extremely diminished and the pain meds keep her in the twilight zone most of the day. Mom may have three children and four grandsons but I'm the only one she sees.  And I can't stress enough how lonely and abandoned both she and I feel.  She was a good mother and doesn't deserve to be thrown out like yesterday's trash.

I'm working on her obituary, but I have no funds to bury her properly or to keep a roof over my head once she''s gone.  I am really going to miss her, I just wish I could strop crying.  What am I going to do without her?




Lest we forget, it really is all about taking and no giving.(object) (embed) Twenty nine years later and the only thing that's changed (other than the hair and dress styles) is that more people are either unemployed or overworked, for less pay of course, while the powers that be continue to rake in profits and bonuses based on the fruits of the their employees efforts.

The Republican meme is to demonize the unions and the masses eat it up, never realizing that it was the unions that made it possible to have a home, health care, send their kids to college, enjoy the occasional vacation and have a nice retirement.  You know something is really wrong when the owners and CEOs make 236 times what their employees do and then said employees bitch about how much union workers make and that it's okay for the people in the ivory towers live high on the hog.


Where Have I Been?


I'm sorry that I haven't posted in the last few months but for some reason blogging just hasn't been important to me.  During my recovery I had time to reflect and one of the things I decided was that I've been wasting my time and the following quote from Tristero at Hullabaloo sums it up quite nicely.Why? Because some of you, right now, are starting to waste the little time you have here on earth by marshaling reasoned arguments and accurate facts to refute Conservapedia's lies. And so are others. And that is terribly sad. And then Jon Stewart crystallized it for me in a segment titled "I Give Up".My surgery went well, at least from the doctor's point of view.  He didn't grace me with his presence until the evening after the surgery when he breezed into my hospital room to discharge me.  Then he wouldn't answer my questions and acted like I was a nuisance.  Heaven forbid that I should know what he did or what he found while surgeons and students in Los Angeles were privy to every aspect of my surgery.  All follow up appointments were handled by his physicians assistant. The conscious time I've spent in his presence is less than ten minutes.The cancer was classified as being Stage 1A and if you have to get diagnosed with cancer this would be the stage you would want since it has a 93% survival rate.  What you don't want is to do the robot surgery.It turns out that they cut everything into little pieces so they can be removed through the less than one inch incisions.  While it may be cutting edge technology it also means that during the slice and dice procedure some cancer cells may be dislodged and left behind.  It also means that they pump you full of air so they have room to move around.  This air cannot be expelled by normal means, it has to be absorbed by the body or you are deflated after the surgery.  This was not done for me.  For three weeks I looked and felt like I had beach ball in the abdominal area.  Simple things like using the toilet, getting out of bed, bending to put on shoes or simply sitting were extremely uncomfortable.  One of the hallmarks of cancer survivors is that they realize that a positive attitude and a reduction in anger and frustration give them a better chance of surviving and/or preventing a recurrence.  I want to live a long and healthy life and I can't do that if I spend most of my time trying to convince stupid people to look at facts instead of listening to people who spread hatred and intolerance on a daily basis.I live in Nevada now and the people here believe the darnedest things, most of which don't exist in reality.  From the Park 51 controversy to burning the Koran as a warning, this country has gone off the deep end and trashed the First Amendment while ensuring that the rest of the world can see how hypocritical we are.  We are no longer a shining beacon of light and freedom, we are a fading nightlight trying to shield ourselves from a bogeyman that has already accomplished his job.  People were worried about Y2K destroying our way of living and it turns out we did it to ourselves.On a distinctly happier note there has been an addition to the family, a Boston/Rat terrier puppy.  His name is Galen and while Shadow wasn't too thrilled in the beginning she had a great time playing with him this morning.  Shai has been more tolerant and I think she's been enjoying Shadow's discomfort.  I will have pictures tomorrow.BBB"Why does any advanced civilization seek to destroy less advanced one? Because the land is strategically valuable, because there are resources that can be cultivated and exploited, but most of all, simply because they can." [...]

Lost In Theory


Lost is coming to an end Sunday evening and people seem to be pretty worked up about it.  As much as I love science fiction and fantasy, I started missing episodes in the second season and haven't watched an episode since the beginning of the third season.  Unlike 24 I wasn't drawn back into the drama and basically read the spoilers if I have nothing else to do.

That being said, here is my favorite theory (from a mind other than my own) about the show.
It will turn out that they've been living one island over from Gilligan the whole time and all of this was just the Professor playing mind games using his coconut powered reality distorter.
May the force be with the fans and may they find the answers they are seeking.


Two Months Later


I've finally been scheduled for surgery.  May 27th at 9 am.  The long delay had nothing to do with the VA and everything to do with the doctor's office and his monster of an office manager.The VA wanted to do the surgery in house but after hearing my situation, the head of the VA in Reno agreed to let me see the oncologist in town.  Neither of my brothers has contacted me, they're probably too afraid I might ask them to help me with mom while I recover.  Which is why Dr. Brilliant (yes that really is his name) agreed that a week in San Francisco and a six week recovery time probably wasn't the best way to treat my cancer and take care of mother.  It was agreed that I was under enough stress as it was.Throughout this whole ordeal the VA has been extremely supportive and has operated in the manner of what's best for me.  That all came to a screeching stop once I moved out of the system and into the world of private insurance.  Then it became all about the bottom line and not what was best for me.The referral from the VA specified that it would reimburse at Medicare rates.  This wasn't good enough for the bubble headed bleach blond with way too much makeup on and clothes that were at least one size too small.  From the moment I started dealing with her she treated me as if I was a developmentally delayed two year old with hearing problems.  She refused to schedule my seeing the doctor until she had personally spoken with the entity responsible for paying the clinic.  She finally scheduled my appointment...for three weeks later.  I finally see the doctor and he wants to use the da Vinci robot as the recovery time is one day in hospital and three to four weeks at home.  I was so jazzed.  Until I left the conference room and had to deal with the pit bull masquerading as the office manager.She told me flat out that she wouldn't schedule the surgery until the exact codes had been approved and that I was to have the VA call her, but not for the next few days because one of the office staff wasn't coming in and she didn't have time to deal with my case until Friday or the next week.  I was stunned speechless.  Never, never would I have ever told one of my patients that I couldn't deal with their problem because it was more important that I answer the phone.  Nor would I have made an ill patient responsible for finding the correct fee billing person and setting up a conference call.  And I had a one woman office.I went back to the VA and talked with the doctor whose timely intervention had caught my cancer.  It turns out she has had dealings with the *itch and had been yelled at also.  The woman definitely has a reputation for being obnoxious and is known throughout Reno as being difficult to deal with.Everything has been taken care of and I'm hoping that the two month delay has not allowed the cancer to progress from Stage 1 to Stage 2.  The differences between the VA and private practice are striking.  One is interested in taking care of the patient, the other is interested in taking care of its wallet.  After the surgery I plan on filing a complaint with the doctor and suggesting that the office manager should take classes in empathy and how to deal with patients under stress.  Or maybe she should take her skills and attitude to a job more suited to her disposition...such as a debt collection agency.BBB"Why does any advanced civilization seek to destroy less advanced one? Because the land is strategically valuable, because there are resources that can be cultivated and exploited, but most of all, simply because they can." [...]

This 'N That


Macs crash?  I've had my iMac for almost four years and while certain programs may have given me the spinning beach ball of death (Firefox, but I have to admit I run the beta versions), never has the whole system crashed. 
Jobs said Flash is a closed proprietary technology that should be bypassed in favor of open standards such as HTML5, a new Web technology that Apple is promoting. He said Flash consumes twice the amount of battery life for video playback, is a security risk and is the No. 1 source of crashes on Mac computers. Jobs added that it's also not suited for the touch interfaces of many modern mobile devices.
Um, Steve?  People in glass houses shouldn't throw stones, Apple isn't exactly known for sharing.  Not that this is a bad thing since your devices have always worked for me, but maybe you could phrase it a little differently.  What I've discovered is that I basically use my computer for email, to surf the web and to charge my iTouch so I should probably get an iPad and be done with it.  I would have room for dining room table after all that space was freed up.  Hmm, and the need for power strips would also decrease.  Win, win.

Not content with mucking up California, the Governator wants to run for president.

Not exactly a surprise.  Of course she's a liar, she slept with another woman's husband.  And it's pretty easy to see she isn't firmly attached to reality.

I am not a Madonna fan by any stretch of the imagination.  Business wise she is incredibly smart and managed to ensure that she received most of the profits from her work, unlike a lot of popular artists, but I still don't like her.  I do like Jane Lynch and because of her I now have a Madonna song on the iTouch.  A most spectacular cover version of Vogue.  I wonder why I can't get into Glee, it's a great premise and everyone attached to the project is extremely talented, but I can't bring myself to watch it on a regular basis.(image)

Too Good Not To Post


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Ihre Papiere, Bitte


It's fascinating how the Tea Partiers can carry signs of Obama with a Hitler mustache or can accuse him of being a socialist while totally ignoring the fact that every time they celebrate passing a bill that discriminates against a select group of people, that they are creating the very future they are accusing Obama of desiring.

The Arizona "Papers, Please" law is a prime example.  The more laws that are passed because of fear, ignorance or racism, the closer the United States comes to replicating whichever totalitarian regime the conservatives and their right wing militants are most afraid of. It's either Nazism or Fascism, depending on which group you are talking to and what day of the week it is.

Many years ago, back when I was married, I lived in the Catskills and worked at the Granit Hotel as a busgirl and server.  Most of the servers were Colombian and a few were probably in the states illegally.  Every once in a while INS would make a sweep of all the workers who looked like they might be illegal and would lock them up until they could prove citizenship. 

My ex was of Sicilian descent and one time he was rounded up and had to have his parents come down with his birth certificate.  He was telling me about it and said that it is much harder to prove you are an American than most people realize.  Carrying around a birth certificate or passport to prove your identity is an invitation to disaster, especially if you lose them.

Since I grew up with a steady diet of science fiction books, I believe that there are other forms of intelligent life not located on the planet Earth.  How do I know they are intelligent?  Because they haven't revealed themselves to us.  It only takes  a brief scan of the news for one to realize that humans are a pretty violent species and at the same time we are afraid of our own shadows.  On the other hand, the majority of us would probably make good slaves.
"If aliens visit us, the outcome would be much as when Columbus landed in America, which didn't turn out well for the Native Americans," he said.

Prof Hawking thinks that, rather than actively trying to communicate with extra-terrestrials, humans should do everything possible to avoid contact.

He explained: "We only have to look at ourselves to see how intelligent life might develop into something we wouldn't want to meet."
Truer words were never spoken.


The Lyrics of My Past


I love music and back when I was a little girl we didn't have iPods, but we did have portable AM radios.  With one earplug, which was okay because stereo was reserved for old people who listened to classical music.   Unfortunately I have no musical ability whatsoever and the only time I can carry a tune (You do not want to see me dance, I make a frog in a blender look good) is when I'm holding a radio.  Or my iPod.

As I've mentioned before my musical tastes vary widely and some of my favorite lyrics are found below.  Can you guess the song and the artist?  Don't cheat, the answers are at the bottom.

1.  Got the wings of heaven on my shoes,  I'm a dancin' man and I just can't lose.

2. You're built like a car, you've got a hubcap diamond star halo

3. I'm in the hi-fidelity first class traveling set And I think I need a Lear jet

4. Second verse, same as the first.

5. Whiskey bottles and brand new cars, Oak tree you're in my way

6.  Oh say can you see my eyes?  If you can then my ...

7. And now you're back from outer space

8. The pain of war cannot exceed the woe of aftermath

9. And then he grabbed her (and then) He tied her up (and then, and then)

10. I remember, I remember when I lost my mind

11. You're bringing me down.  You stood and you watched as my baby left town.

12.  I'm afraid that I'm not sure of a love that there is no cure for. (Inspired by #6)

Easy bonus lyrics

13. You are my candy girl and you've got me wanting you

1. Stayin' Alive by the Bee Gees
2. Bang a Gong (Get it On) by T. Rex or Power Station depending on which decade you remember the best.
3. Money by Pink Floyd
4. Henry the VIII by Herman's Hermits
5. That Smell by Lynyrd Skynyrd
6. Hair by The Cowsills
7. I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor
8. Battle of Evermore by Led Zeppelin
9 Along Came Jones by The Coasters
10.  Crazy by Gnarls Barkley
11. Winchester Cathedral by The New Vaudeville Band
12. I Think Love You by the Partridge Family
13. Sugar, Sugar by the Archies

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Good News, Bad News


The good new is that it's Stage 1.  The bad news is that it's cancer. The really interesting thing is that it should have been discovered last year when I had health insurance but it wasn't.  It had to found by accident while using government run healthcare courtesy of the VA.  I knew something was up when the doctor came out to greet me himself.

Depending on whether the only gynecological oncologist in town will treat me at the VA determines whether or not I have to go to San Francisco.  The minimum amount of time that I will be hospitalized is 2 -3 days for a laparoscopic surgery or a week for full abdominal surgery.  I haven't a clue as to what to do with Mom.  I haven't told her because there is no point in getting her upset over something she can't do anything about, but I really can't leaver her alone for days worrying about me and if I'm coming back. If I have to put mom in respite care, I still have to worry about the dogs.

I'm more resigned than scared, it just follows the pattern of my life.  I find circumstances I'm happy with and something unexpected smacks me upside the head.  As Baz Luhrmann so helpfully pointed out, worrying is about as useful as trying to solve algebra problems by chewing bubblegum.  The things you worry about never happen and then you get blindsided by something that never crossed your mind.

The survival rate for uterine cancer is 84.4 percent.  Unless you're black, in which case it's 61.8 percent.  You have no idea how much I'm hoping I get my health from my mom.


If They Only Had A Brain


Tea Party activists and the GOP have already shown that they don't have a heart and the only courage they display is when they are in mob mode and feel they can spit on people without repercussion.Why are the teabaggers so scared of a single payer system?  Or any system other than the one we have now.?  The VA health care I'm receiving is better than mom's Medicare.  Whenever I go to the VA, my ID card is swiped once and I am checked in for everything and seamlessly move from one department to another.  My records are computerized and every provider has access to the whole chart and the departments work together to provide the best possible service.  Heck, I even have access to part of my records and the IT guys are working to make the rest of it available to me by the end of the year.  I order my drug refills via the web and a few days later they arrive in the mail.  Soon I'll be able to see lab results.  What's not to like?A few weeks ago I wrote a post about my health and the experience I was having with the VA system.  I cannot emphasize enough how well taken care of I feel. Last Tuesday (3/23) I reported to the surgical unit for a D and C.  My check in time was 12 noon.  I met the surgeon one more time and since I had completed my pre-op testing a few days before, we were ready to roll.  I signed the final consent form and was led into the patient preparation area.  There I met the anesthesiologist and the nurse who would be shepherding me from place to place.We were having a discussion about what I would use for pain management and the next thing I knew I was wide awake and the procedure was completed.  My doctor came in to tell me that everything looked good and barring anything untoward in the pathology report, I would be a good candidate for a new way of removing fibroids and that I wouldn't have to have a hysterectomy.  Then they called my ride while I got dressed and by 3:30 pm I was home and in my own bed resting up.The only bad part of my experience was coming home and reading the garbage the GOP was using to whip the masses into out of control mobs.  The lies were unbelievable, unless you were an uneducated teabagger. or enjoy waiting weeks for authorizations from some clerk whose job is to increase corporate profits instead of ensuring that you receive the best health care possible.  I've had a couple of surgeries in my life and I can honestly say that this last one was the most professional and comfortable one I have ever had.  I go back on the 31st for a follow up and then it's on to the next problem.  My neck.I missed a phone call from the nurse in neurology who said she noticed that I have an appointment on April 1st at one o'clock and would it be okay if she scheduled my EMG test for twelve o'clock on the same day.  I called her back and said that would be perfectly okay with me.I honestly don't like the health care bill, but it is better than the alternative for 32 million people, which is nothing.  I believe a single payer system would benefit everyone, from the patient to the doctor and the labs in between.   Everyone except the insurance companies.  You would think that everyone would want the experience that I and other veterans I know have had.  But, you would have to have a brain.BBB"Why does any advanced civilization seek to destroy less advanced one? Because the land is strategically valuable, because there are resources that can be cultivated and exploited, but most of all, simply because they can." [...]

After Receiving One Too Many



Music On My Mind


I caught the last few minutes of Southland the other day and the music made me stop and listen.  I told my mom I thought it was Willie Nelson and due to the wonders of YouTube, I found it.  I've listened to the Bob Dylan original and I have to admit that Willie does the song a little better. This is the version from the last few minutes of Southland, a show that I think I need to add to my viewing schedule.This is the full Willie version, I apologize for the German, but the video is definitely worth it.It baffles me how I can have Glenn Miller, Merle Haggard, Willie Nelson, Dusty Springfield, The Monkees, Beatles, MC Hammer, Joan Baez,Three Dog Night, Whitesnake, Alvin and The Chipmunks, the Four Tops, Bobby Brown, Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin, the Pretenders, Depeche Mode, Gnarls Barkley, Oingo Boingo, Peggy Lee and Finger Eleven on the old iPod.   And who could forget Roger Miller?Love that song ever since I saw him on Red Skelton.This one is for the teabaggers who have forgotten what it was really like in the fifties and early sixties.BBB"Why does any advanced civilization seek to destroy less advanced one? Because the land is strategically valuable, because there are resources that can be cultivated and exploited, but most of all, simply because they can." [...]

Why, Why, Why?


Why is it okay for for the financial "gurus" to receive millions of dollars in bonuses after making so many mistakes that the economy of the US still hasn't recovered from, but it isn't okay for teachers or any union member to make $75K to 100K teaching children how to read and write?  For some reason unions send the almost never right into spasms of impotent fury, could it be because they're jealous that collective bargaining provides some measure of protection from arbitrary firings and ensures that workers get benefits and a decent living wage? Do they mind that the police and fire departments are unionized? Curious minds want to know.

Why is it that whenever I put something away for safekeeping that I can never find it again?

Why are doctors trying to fix something that clearly can't be fixed?  Are they sure it wasn't just gas?  If he had a heart I could understand, but he doesn't.  Obviously death panels don't exist, since Cheney has used more than his fair share of government provided health care.
But voters quickly sniff out what this means. The government will use the "science" of comparative effectiveness research to achieve cost savings the only way government can: denial of care. The Soviet medical system kept down the heart disease caseload by placing cardiac care units on the fifth floor, walk up. Death panels, anyone?
A majority of Americans want the public option, why is it that the mainstream media and Republicans not only think otherwise, but repeatedly try to marginalize everyone that does?


This Is What Happens When You Don't Have Health Insurance


I am a single woman who ran her own business for almost 17 years.  It was a small business but it kept the roof over my head and food in the tummy.  And that's about it.  I applied to several insurance companies for coverage and was turned down to preexisting conditions.  There was one HMO that was willing to cover me but it was only for catastrophic care and it cost more than the rent for my office.  I ended up receiving health care by way of the emergency room.This was okay in my thirties and forties, not so good for my fifties.  Then I moved to Reno and one of the guys at the dog park told me that I would probably be able to receive care from the VA.  I checked, and lo and behold, I was eligible.  Serving my country was finally worth something other than the pride I felt wearing the uniform.The morning before you see your doctor for the first time you show up at the lab and they draw blood and urine samples.  The doctor has the results before you see him and is prepared to discuss with you your symptoms and ailments.  I left the VA that afternoon with blood pressure medicine, a new type of asthma inhaler and thyroid replacement hormone.  Nothing for pain as I am allergic to almost everything except Demerol.Last week I had low back pain that was radiating down my legs and up my back and the on call nurse suggested that I come into the emergency room because it was becoming hard for me to breathe.  It was about ten pm and there were only a few people there and none of them were in the waiting room.  They immediately took me into a room and started an EKG.  My heart was okay but my breathing wasn't so they gave me an asthma treatment right away.  Then they sent me for X-rays for my low back.My doctor called the next day with the results and prescribed a muscle relaxer to help reduce the pain and increase movement and asked me to make an appointment. Before I even saw him the nurse gave me my H1N1 and pneumonia shots. Then the doctor scheduled MRIs for my low back and neck.The VA has a new program that directly targets female veterans and as I left his office they snatched me up, did an intake and performed all those girl specific tests.  That doctor suggested that I get an ultrasound and abdominal CAT scan.All test were performed this Wednesday and Thursday.  The MRIs were first and my doctor called me that afternoon with the results.  There is some impingement in the low back, but the neck is a crisis area.  According to the MRI there is very little spinal fluid from C5 down and very little space for the nerves to pass through comfortably which is why my hands go to sleep whenever I type or hold something as small as a book.  He suggested that I immediately go get a cervical collar while I waited for an appointment with a neurologist.The CAT scans and ultrasound were performed on Thursday and even I could tell there was something wrong from just looking at the monitors.  Although my mammogram and Pap smear were normal, the rest of the girlie parts aren't and they are inhibiting the function of other organs in the abdomen.  I had surgery in that area in 1990 and it looks like they will have to perform another one to remove said girlie parts.  Oh joy.All of this could have been prevented if I had had medical coverage.  Now everything is at a crisis level that can only be addressed by surgery.  As an acupuncturist I am offended because [...]

Imaginary Lover


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Sunday Afternoon Humor


I'm sure that you have seen pharmaceutical advertising in doctor's offices on everything from tissues to note pads. Well, in my book, this one should get the prize....

Happy Valentine's Day!

The Woman Can Sing!


I've always been fond of Rufus Wainwright's version of Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah" but kd Lang knocked it out of the park last night for the Olympic opening ceremonies.  Shivers ran up and down my spine.  NBC is vigorously protecting its copyright of the Olympics, so here is the link.  It is well worth watching, you can feel the emotion she puts into singing it and you know beyond the shadow of a doubt that she is not lip syncing while she delivers the best rendition I've ever heard. 

If you don't want to install the Silverlight whatever on your computer, here is kd singing it at the 2005 Juno awards, another impressive performance.(object) (embed)

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