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Snowy days, drifiting away...

Sat, 17 Feb 2007 20:19:36 GMT

This past week was a little bit more crazy than usual, as the area got approximately 17 inches of snow (at least as measured by the weather people at WLFI). As a result, Purdue c ancelled 1.5 days of classes, which is the first time that's happened since '84. (It's happened other times since then, but not for snow while classes were in session).

What did I do those days? I attempted to get caught up on things that were due on Tuesday. Last weekend was shot for the most part, as I managed to get sick on Saturday and spent the rest of the time trying to feel better and get some work done (and failed miserably). So... I got caught up for that stuff right about Thursday. All the things that were initially due later in the week got pushed back to next week. As a result, I'm stuck with oodles and oodles of things to do this weekend, and only 2 days left to do it in.

Then I have a somewhat growing situation involving someone. While I can't for good reason post who this person is, there are some of you out there who do know this person's identity. Basically, I manged to start screwing up the friendship with this person a couple of weekends ago, and I've tried to make it better over the weeks since then. But I'm afraid that I keep doing things that keep messing up the relationship. Somehow, though, I've got to perservere and get through it all, and hope that things will turn out a bit better between me and this person. And... just maybe.... I will survive this semester (we are 3/8 of the way through).

Now... it's back to the working.

--Ryan out

Where the deer and the antelope don't playSky.FM's Smooth Jazz station

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 00:25:03 GMT

So... here I am on day 5 of working evenings in Lawson. I'm beginning to wonder if the janitorial staff suspect if I'm a permanent fixture in here or not. (Although it must be said that I don't think I'm quite up to the fixture level of Dr. Gorman [1]).

It's really sad, though, that I've had to spend so much time in here. I know that I'm not able to get things done at home, just because I'm always surrounded by distractions. However, it's been close to the same here in the ACM office, partially because I've been working on the computer a lot more. See... I have this problem with the internet distracting me [2]. I'll be rtrying to work on a certain topic (say correcting my cover letter for an English assignment) and *poof* I have this sudden urge to go looking up a particular topic in Wikipedia. Fortunately for me, it stops a little bit before William Howard Taft, but it's always there. Then there's Facebook, the scourge of every well-meaning college student. And if it's a crazy news night... well... sometimes I just can't stop myself.

But it's getting better, partially because I know that I can't continue this process. I have to get work done sometime. And what better time than now?

Let's see... the last two weeks have been pretty hectic (to once again say the least). The Colts won the Super Bowl (yay!), and... I worked on homework (boo)... a lot of homework, actually. I also did some what can only be described as being stupid events of a more... private nature. But that's something that I won't talk about for some time... until I get it all figured out.

I also learned that apparently my blog is indexed by Google, as my last post that mentioned which company I currently work out (Q---spec) got picked up in a Google News Alert. Sorta scary if you think about it, and a good thing that I didn't say anything bad (not that I have anything to say bad about the company in the first place =)

Next, I learned that I really hate cold winds. Wind chills far below zero are not my cup of tea (or coffee). I guess I should be glad that I wasn't up in the North Dakota (a lot worse wind chills up there) or (less emphatic) not in upstate New York with the tons of snow they've gotten.

Finally.... when is someone going to come and fix this stupid HVAC system in here? I'm tired of hearing it bang off every 10-15 minutes! Anyways... back to the fun homework.

--Ryan out

[1] Dr. Gorman is the Assistant to the Head of the Department. I wish I could tell you what that's supposed to mean, except that I don't know what it means. All I can say is that (a) he works in the Graduate Office, (b) all my TA stuff for the department goes through him, and (c) he's always here at random weird hours of the day / night. And ALWAYS in a shirt and tie (sometimes the coat too). Heck... freshman year I saw him randomly inspecting the cue sticks at Earhart one Friday night. That's some... dedication right there.

[2] Yes, this posting is a case in point. However, I started writing again with the full intention of keeping at least weekly updates. It's been two weeks so far since my last post, and I didn't want it to slip any farther...

This post is dedicated to you... the fans

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 04:53:13 GMT

First of all, I'd like to say welcome back to myself. It's been a while... a long while (beginning of the NFL season while).

Anyways... I've been doing some thinking recently about my crazy, hectic schedule. It's not that any one particular thing is causing me stress. Rather, it's the whole conglomerate of crazy things that's not going well. I mean... I only have (a) 17 credit hours of class, (b) 10-15 hours of work at Quadraspec, (c) 3 hours of work doing evening consulting for CS 180 (plus other random times that I'm in the lab), (d) treasurer for 2 different organizations, each requiring a fair amount of time (not to mention being a usher coordinator for CVN), (e) other organizations that I"m not a president in, and (f) keeping track of those Boilers...

If I had to go through all this by myself, I'm honestly not sure what I'd do. I'm fairly sure I would have found the University Street parking garage pretty handy... but that's not a path that I choose to think about. (For those of you who aren't in the know... someone did commit suicide by jumping off a parking garage a few years ago after his compiler projects weren't going too well.)

My point is that I'm really feeding off of all of you out there... my friends. I've been so blessed to have such wonderful, caring friends who (at least for the most part) are there when I need them. There are those of you who I've explicitly thanked in the past for helping me out (and you all know who you are). And then there are the majority of you who I have not gotten a chance to thank in the past. This is the time, though, for you to get recognized. If it weren't for you guys helping me out along the roads of life, I surely would have gone astray. And that is a debt I can never repay.

Last night, Kim reminded me indirectly of what I have written on my About Me section on Facebook. It's something that's been up there for a long time, and it's still something that hasn't lost its meaning. Rather than trying to summarize myself, I'll let the words speak for themselves.
Perhaps the most important thing to know about me is that I'm there for my friends (or indeed, anyone at all). If you ever need anything at all, let me know, and I'll see if I can do anything to help. If you need advice, well... I'll give some (crappy as it may be). If you just need a ear, I have two perfectly good ones waiting for you. If you want a hug, I can give it. If you need a shoulder, mine are here for you.
Please... just let me know. It's the least I can do for those who have been there for me. And to all of you out there, thank you.

--Ryan out

In lieu of an actual journal entry...

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 02:43:36 GMT

I'll post my TODO list.

Classes in general:
  • Read, read, and more reading. (Applies to all)
  • Do associated homework (MA 375, maybe CS 352) and project (CS 352... if it ever gets released (EDIT: When I get around to it. Happy, James?).
  • Get outstanding issues for v 1.0.0 finished.
  • Actually get around to programming my phone (now that they've upgraded them).
  • Find a way to actually be productive during offtime (referring more to consulting.)
  • Remember to turn in timecard / hours
  • Agenda
  • Notebook
  • Semester Plan Presentation
  • Work on the projects...
    • Stat script fun
    • Documenting existing scripts
    • Documenting process to install machines
    • Configure Mac machine
    • Lay out Music Kiosk design
  • Finish up Annual Report
  • Contact O'Reilly
  • Contact assigned corporate officers
  • Make sure library is updated
  • Pay bills
  • File paperwork appropriately
Circle K:
  • Plan fundraisers
  • Meet with BOSO re: pigs
  • Hope painting goes well
  • Contact HfH, PSG about opportunities
  • Set up mailing list
  • Compile Gus Macker people's info
  • Confirm website design
  • Work on website
  • Shadowing UCs before my first main one (Wilco)
  • Turn in Boiler STeam app
  • Process possibilities from CS job fair
  • Go internship hunting!
  • Go through stacks of paper in room
  • Finish filing emails
  • Catch up on papers
  • Put sporting events on calendar
  • Have quality conversations with certain people.
I probably could keep going on... but this is crazy enough as is.

*sigh* Back to the grindstone it is.

(Postscript... based on a website I found earlier today (no clue where it's at), I was the 543rd member of Facebook from Purdue. Sorta interesting... sorta strainge too that I was actually one of the first people who signed for something like this here.)

(Edit #1 - 9/14 - Got through some things... and other things got put on here.)
(Edit #2 - 9/18 - More things done, more things added. Woot.)

Colts survived...

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 04:06:53 GMT

my sanity may not. But we'll see...

It's going to be another long-as-heck semester.

Oh, the irony...

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 16:53:57 GMT

(Transcribed from a cell phone camera pic taken in the basement of Krannert Sunday night; emphasis mine)


"Classroom Communication for International Teaching Assistants"

Begins the week of August 28th
(2nd week of Purdue Classes)

Please continuing checking SSINFO for more information.

Slight RantNew ageish music

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 03:18:30 GMT

Yes, I survived the crazy moving weekend. Among the many things that I have learned is that one can in fact successfully move a heavy metal bookcase across the street by using a wheelie chair. That and not having working elevators suck up the wazoo.

But that's not the purpose of this post. The purpose is about what I noticed on campus this weekend in the midst of moving. Yes... it was the big rush weekend for the sororities here on campus. Every time Jon and I would leave Lawson on Sunday, we would hear the girls chanting and clapping some refrain over and over... for each set of prospective fresh blood (I suppose). That's the thing that really gets me--it's the first full weekend here at Purdue; how in the world do you expect the freshman to know if the Greek system is right for them? They've only been here for (at most) two weeks... and two weeks really isn't enough to get a good feel for this campus (unless you're a heaaaavy partier, in which case you may be fit for the sorority life.)

I guess my feeling is that if you push rush back until spring semester, it would allow people to get that much more used to campus and the various houses. Sure, you may have people who are new students starting in the spring (through whatever reason), but it's a heck of a lot less than others.

If anyone has any feedback on this, let me know (as always); I really appreciate it.

Now let's see if Facebook manages to double post this again!

--Ryan out

Well Done

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 04:12:00 GMT

Tonight's a hodgepodge before I go off to bed (as tomorrow will be a quite early day helping move Camilla, our Circle K adviser).

Today was the (as always) exciting PSUB Activities Bonanza. During my wandering around trying to find the Boiler STeam booth (and no, that's not a typo--the T is capitalized), I found the greatest club of all for Jeanette: the Meat Club. Their sole purpose is to eat meat. All different kinds too. (I talked to the guy at the booth, and he stated that they are open to vegetarians to come, so that they could 'convert' them.) They're actually having a callout on Engineering Mall on the 14th from 11am to 2pm. Sounds like I'll have to go by and check it out. Also picked up information for a few other organizations so that I could fill up my schedule even more (thus bumping my schedule from slightly crazy to somewhat crazy).

Went and saw the Da Vinci Code tonight. I will refrain from posting my comments on it for the moment, as I probably could rant for a fair amount of time on it if I so chose. Afterwords, I wandered over to the Welcome Back Bash. It wasn't too bad, as I ran into some people that I knew, and enjoyed the entertainment. I think one of the highlights of my night was the Ship of Fools doing their murder skit. The suggested occupation for the murderer was none other than a Nobel laureate physicist. Somehow, though, it turned into a mad scientist / bombmaker-like person. In any case, it definitely didn't look like the picture of Mike that I had in my eye.

Schedule for this weekend doesn't look too bad, unless you don't appreciate heavy lifting. As I mentioned, tomorrow will be moving day for Camilla. After relaxing tomorrow night, I run straight into moving the rest of ACM's office Sunday morning. That's going to be a blast. I'll be lucky to be able to move at the end of all of it.

And with that, I'm out. Or at least somewhat close to it.

(edit: Fixed typo. And here I thought Facebook was screwing up the post somehow...)

It grew... like a tree.

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 12:33:57 GMT

So... on my RSS aggregator, I had a couple of feeds off of FatWallet. Good way to find out about some cheap / free stuff. Unfortunately, they hadn't been updating for a while (at least a couple of weeks).

Woke up this morning, and noticed that Bloglines was suddenly reporting that I had 6989(!) unread messages. Considering that I had ~600 yesterday night... something was up.

I checked it out, and Fatwallet apparently has 5722 unread items(!). Guess I better start cracking...


So... how about that corn syrup smell?Vienna Teng - Lullabye for a Stormy Night

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 03:17:44 GMT

Yes. I'm back at Purdue.

Yes. It's been another month since I last posted.

But hey, I'm back and ready to go. Let's see here:

  • Finished up the summer internship. I'm going to continue to work at Quadraspec during the school year as an intern (not through IfI--they want to get another intern with them through the program so we can get our huge backlog of issues worked out.

  • Started cataloging my library at home using LibraryThing. When I was home for the couple of weeks between the end of work and moving back here, I managed to process all the books in my bedroom, as well as some random other ones strewn throughout the house. So far, I'm up to 297 books. It also looks like I get the job of doing this for ACM, so we finally get some sort of catalog of our library.

  • Speaking of ACM, we've started moving our stuff from the old CS building (now Haas Hall despite the claims of practically all the official university maps and the labels on the building itself) to the new Lawson CS building. Once we get our (somewhat old, but still working) computers moved over there, I have a feeling that I'll be spending lots more time over there... especially since we'll have a jack in our office to plug in a laptop and Compilers is here.

  • Now speaking of my laptop... I'm trying out Ubuntu on it. So far, I've been able to do everything I need so far on Ubuntu (i.e., without rebooting back into Windows.) However, I still have a bunch of Jeanette's DVDs waiting for me to rip. And everyone needs their Civ4 fix now and then.

As a post note, in case anyone cares to take a peek at my schedule, you can now view my newly-formed schedule on Google Calendar here.

Finally... now everyone can follow my (random, infrequent) posts on Facebook! ... err... I'm not quite sure why you'd want to do that, but you can.

It's going to be one heck of a semester. But it'll be a fun one too. And I promise... I will keep this up-to-date.

--Ryan out

< Rant >

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 02:54:00 GMT

Random rant: Ever since Zinedane Zidane's infamous headbutt yesterday, it seems like half of the videos put up on Youtube (or at least the most popular videos as found in their RSS feed) are of his headbutt and the ensuing red card.

For Pete's sake... how many different angles do you need to watch it from? I mean... it's not like the Basketbrawl when there were clearly a fair amount of fans involved. There were two players involved. Sure... if you want to take the time and try to interpret what was said, you may want to have multiple camera shots. But why do we need this many?!

Then again, I haven't seen anything on that RSS feed that's really worth my watching. I wonder sometimes who the heck watches these videos.


Tue, 11 Jul 2006 02:50:44 GMT

So... yes. Today was my birthday... and it was a somewhat exciting one. The family drove the two hours over from the Fort to come visit me and go out to dinner with me (Red Lobster was delicious as usual).

However... I think what really made my day (or at least amused me to no end) was today's Get Fuzzy comic. For a while now, I've had Satchel as my buddy icon. I'm not really sure why I chose him, other than the fact that I can be very naive part of the time. Anyways, today's first panel was nice and simple: Rob has a package in his hand and says, "Happy Birthday, Satch!"

Perhaps this just happened to be some big coincidence that Satchel and I have the same birthday. Or maybe Darby Conley just decided that it would be time to run Satchel's birthday (unlike, say Garfield's birthday which is pretty well fixed).

Or.... maybe.... something more is at work. Perhaps it isn't a coincidence at all. Perhaps...

Or my overactive imagination is just going crazy again.


As Mark Twain once (apparently) said...Three Dog Night - One

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 02:09:25 GMT

Rumors of my death have been greatly exaggerated. (Bartleby has it slightly different).

So... it's been two months since I've last posted on here... two months that I can't believe have passed. I've read 5 months worth of papers (most of them during that 2 week period that I was lacking my laptop), collected 287 feeds in my RSS aggregator (with more(!) on the way, put in 330 hours of work at Quadraspec, organized my CD collection...

About the only thing I really haven't done is hung out enough with people this summer. And that's a downright shame. What have I done instead? *looks at the previous paragraph* Not a whole freaking lot.

Tomorrow marks my birthday. The family is driving over from the Fort to spend some quality time with me; it'll be a lot different than last year when I was up at Northwestern supervising / 'instructing'. So I've spent part of the weekend cleaning up a bit around the apartment... I've also sat around and watched a lot more sports than what I needed to.

There's so much more that I want need to say... but I'd much rather spend some time reading in bed. I guess this is really how I've felt for the past two months; I need to get on here and document things, but I just don't take the initiative *to* do it. Instead, I spend my time doing somewhat frivolous things.

But I promise... to all my (two? three?) readers out there... I will keep writing. Just not tonight.


Sun, 07 May 2006 12:35:36 GMT

So another annoyance... I went to bed last night around 12:20 or so, and a a bit of difficulty going to sleep because the street lamps were illuminating the shades here in the room some.

That's nothing, though, compared to this morning, where I've been tossing and turning since about 6:30 because of the stupid light that's coming in the shades. I've determined in the past that it's really difficult to get me to sleep when it's light outside (like my waking up at 5am in England debacle), and this isn't really helping matters at all.

Oh well... I guess I can survive. Now back to the massive amounts of unpacking I have to do.

Halfway There

Sun, 07 May 2006 04:05:44 GMT

Well... I did it. I survived the crazy semester. Finals week was certainly interesting; I must say that having finals compressed at the end is definitely not the way to go, since I really started losing my motivation to study a lot earlier than that. As a result, my CS final went pretty well... then it seemed to sorta go downhill from there. I did alright on the other ones, but I definitely could have done a lot better.

Then we had the glorious fun of moving over all the stuff to the apartment that I'm staying in over the summer. I'm subleasing out PJ's place (adviser for CVN) over the summer. Parents left about an hour ago, and now I have all these random bags / boxes of stuff strewn around the place. So tomorrow is definitely the day of unpacking everything.

One of the big issues that I notice here is that the internet seems to be really really laggy. I'm used to being able to type very much interactively on a ssh connection to a CS machine, but now... it's.... slow (a few second turnaround.) It's almost as if I'm connected to a 56k modem all over again. Admittedly, it could be due to everyone seeming to share one connection to the internet, but still...

I think ResNet has spoiled me.

Anywho... off to bed now, so I can get up in the morning and unpack all day long. Thankfully for me I don't have to start work until Tuesday, as I think I will still be unpacking when Monday hits.

But I survived... and I"m now a junior! =)

Back With a Clap of

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 04:29:07 GMT

Wow... I've had a crazy week and a half. Let's see if I can recap it all into one big long post before I go heading off to bed.First of all, my dad's doing better. They had gone into his deltoid muscle on Friday, so he was pretty sore, but when they took out his drain this past Wednesday, they gave the results of the chest MRI that they had taken in the past. It appears that the cancer hadn't undergone metastasis (in other words, it hadn't spread to his lungs, which is a really good sign). They're not completely sure at the moment, but they think he won't need chemo. They'll be going to a second doctor, though, this week to see if he agrees with the first doctor's opinion.Then there was Relay... which I survived, barely. It was really really cold that night (got down to low 30s when I last checked inside, with a wind chill somewhere below that). I just kept coming back to the room and grabbing more and more things to put on, until I just plain ran out of things *to* put on. I ended up waddling around the track with just my eyes uncovered, and my nice fogged up glasses. But, I really wasn't getting cold any more. However, being out there really started aggravating my knees (which isn't really surprising to me--they always start hurting after a while) and my foot (which *was* surprising to me. I had sat down to watch Ship of Fools for a while, and when I got back up, I could barely walk on it. It slowly but surely got better as the week went on, but it was just a big irritant for a while.)I was sorta ticked off, though, about the whole event, since some people didn't really seem to get into the spirit. The point is to walk in memory of people, in honor of people... to relay in their honor... not to sit around in a tent and complain about it being cold. But I digress... I definitely didn't make it to my goal of 200 laps, though (only made it to around 130). Thanks to the additional people who donated! (Read: Thanks again Lynn...) I'm really happy to write that Interns for Indiana worked out, and I have a job over in the Purdue Research Park with QuadraSpec. While I could attempt to go through and describe what I'll be doing, I don't know if I can do it justice. So let's just say that I'll be working on the software side of the business and leave it at that.This caused a bit of a problem, since I didn't have a place to live here over the summer. Mike had already made plans to stay around here and take summer classes. When he was home over the weekend, he came up with the (perhaps brilliant, perhaps not so brilliant) plan of staying here in our room over the summer. It definitely makes sense to me since we'll be living here again in the fall, but it's all dependent on what the people at the front desk say. If that doesn't work out, though, I've had an offer from PJ, the adviser of CVN, to stay at his place over the summer since he'll be gone on an internship. I could definitely do that too, especially since he's living in a very nice place.Finally... to coursework. Last week was just crazy with having a CS project due and two tests going on (the Math one I survived... the ECE one... aie!), but I managed to survive them. Now I go into hardcore working on the ECE project that we're looking at delivering next Monday. This is really going to be a long Grand Prix week, even with me not being a drinker at all.At least I have some things to be looking forward to: this upcoming weekend is the semi-annual book sale at WLPL. Normally I wouldn't be a big fan of book sales, but they have Half-Price Sunday! Believe me... I love picking up paperbacks for 25 cents and hardcovers for 50. So if anyone has any requests... let [...]

Double-plus ungood...

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 02:33:19 GMT

Well... today has been an interesting day. Jeff's on Spring Break this week, so the parental figures brought him over today and he shadowed my different classes today. Not really sure how much he learned (other than 'Phil is the man' =), but I think it was a worthwhile experience. He got the chance to see how I live a day.

Tonight, though, after Circle K (yay for me officially being the treasurer of the club), I came back to my room where I found out some bad news. Not only am I walking in Relay for Life on Saturday / Sunday to help out the American Cancer Society, I'm now walking for someone really dear to me: my dad.

For as long as I could remember, he had this extra bump on his arm. It basically looked like someone had stuck a tennis ball-size piece of fat under his skin right below his shoulder. Everyone (all of his doctors included) had looked at it and thought it was just a typical lipoma. Recently, he developed a spot (or perhaps he had it for a while... I'm not completely sure) on his neck that the doctors slightly worried about, so they decided that they should remove it. My dad figured that it would be a good thing to get the spot removed on his shoulder as well.

I didn't necessarily follow what happened from there, but suffice it to say that they went and talked to a doctor who said that there were several 'abnormal' cells there. Basically, it appears that he has a form of liposarcoma. Fortunately for everyone involved, his is only a Class 1 case, which apparently is the lowest severity of cancer. In any case, he's going to go have surgery done on Friday morning where they're going to go in and see if they can remove more cells in there as to leave a nice ring of good, non-cancerous cells; if they don't remove all of them the first time around, then it apparently will keep coming back, each time worse than the last.

So if you see me being a bit sad this week, that's why. I'm just thinking of my dad... and hoping that he'll do fine. I'm trying to keep an upbeat mood on this, but it'll be difficult.

Now comes the plea part: if people are interested in donating money to me, I would greatly appreciate it. Link to the online page where you can donate is here:

--Ryan out

Hump DayEl Songs from El Favorite Songs Folder

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 03:49:44 GMT

So... I've been working on things for a while tonight and was randomly browsing Facebook during a break, when I came across Spaf's profile. Yes... Dr. Spafford is on Facebook.

That's... not something I would have expected.

Anywho, I'm slowly making my way through the week. Tomorrow will be a really busy day for me, but I think I should be able to survive. At the moment, I'm supposed to be talking to 4 companies at the IfI fair, but that's presuming that I make it there in time; I have a feeling that my ECE lab will be taking a while.

But I'll face these problems when I get there. For now, back to the grindstone...


Crazy CrazyRandom things from the depths of my hard drive

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:36:49 GMT

So... wow... I haven't posted on here in a week. And what a (somewhat) crazy week it's been. I thought I was caught up back over break, but between my interview with JPMorgan Chase on Thursday in Columbus (which, by the way, went pretty well--should find out about it by the end of this week) and the CS homework from hell (I think I put in probably 10 hours into it at least. And I doubt that Gustavo's going to grade how ever many 30 page stacks o'stuff. Not to mention the small fact that the posted solutions are frequently incorrect.), I... well... sorta fell back behind.

And this week doesn't get any better. I honestly think this is the busiest week I will have ever experienced here at Purdue. I have *so* much stuff to do, and I really don't know how I'm going to get all of them done. I guess I'll just try my best, and whatever happens happens. But I don't know if I can survive...

If I make it to Saturday, it'll be a miracle.

On two related notes, you can now view my weekly schedule over at I will try to update this on a weekly basis, but no guarantee. Everything is handled in EssentialPIM, which seems like a really cool scheduling system. It really helps me out keeping track of what I have going on... there's only so much that a Mortar Board can do. So... now you all can stalk me. =|

Next, if people were so kind and donated to me for Relay for Life, I would greatly appreciate it. It's all for a good cause, and I promise to walk extra hard for you if you donate.

Ok... break time over. Time to study a bit more, then sleep.

... err... except I have more things to do. Great. Just great. =(

--Ryan out


Sun, 19 Mar 2006 15:37:23 GMT

Well... I'm heading back in a couple of hours. And boy, this has been a very unproductive break. ... Oh well.

Back to the grindstone!


Break TimeScatman John - Scatman's World

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 05:31:20 GMT

So I'm finally here on Spring Break, and boy has it been nice so far. It's been giving me a chance to relax... to sleep in my own bed (with enough space to actually spread out!)... and to see the family as well, which is definitely one of my favorite parts. I really enjoy getting any chance that I can have to see my family, so these last two nights of seeing both my paternal and maternal grandmas really meant something to me. They're definitely not in the greatest shape, and things seem to be slowly heading downhill. One had a series of incidents a couple of weeks ago which ended up with her being in the hospital for a period of time for observation... but she's doing ok now. The problem with all of my family is that we're really stubborn, and, as a result, we don't really care to go to the doctor all that much. Sure, my mom tries to get people to go (it's what a nurse should do, after all), but the issues still remain for a lot of us. And so most of us will just keep going on living an unhealthy lifestyle until that one day when *poof* everything changes and someone's ended up dead.

So what do I have planned ahead for me for break? For one, I need to get caught up on my sleep, and writing this doesn't really help me. See, I have this funny tendency when I'm home to hop on the computer as I'm going to bed and be on it for a few hours (until 1-1:30), then attempt to get up at a somewhat normal time for me (say 9ish). Somehow this doesn't go very well with wanting to get more sleep. Oh well...

My secondary goal is to get as much work done for school as what I can. I definitely need to get caught up with things so that I'm not perpetually in the state of getting caught back up at school. The issue is actually making myself do it, since home isn't exactly very conducive to working, or at least not to me. I always end up being distracted by other things, or my computer (say games like this new addiction of mine--Knarly Works).

I know I definitely need to go through and update this more often, but my issue is that I never seem to come up with good entries when I actually sit down at the computer. They all sound good in my mind.... but never when I reach the computer. Perhaps when they make those computers that jack directly into to the brain, then I'll actually come up with some good entries. But until then, it'll just be these stream-of-consciousness monster entries that just seem to ramble on and on without much point.

But for now, I must finish up my game, then head off to bed.

--Ryan out


Fri, 10 Mar 2006 05:13:15 GMT

I dislike rain. Especially in heavy amounts.

I also dislike not being able to tell people what you really think because you're afraid of what might happen. I'm afraid of the truth... of telling my emotions.

And making these statements on here isn't going to help me at all. Maybe sleep will... or Spring Break. Or perhaps nothing at all...

Wondering... and Wandering.Music From The Wonder Years

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 05:19:46 GMT

So I randomly downloaded a collection of music from the Wonder Years. I never really remember watching the show (partially because I was a little kid when it was on originally), but I was really impressed with the music that they had on it. I started listening to the music tonight and realized that I had not heard a lot of these songs in ages...

Like "It's My Party"... I don't honestly remember the last time hearing this song. It's just something that's ingrained in my memory from childhood, one of those songs that you really don't take the time to remember until it hits you. (And no, I'm not planning on crying even if I want to.)

Anyways, I survived my trip to Ohio State today. We may have lost, but at least I got the chance to see Snyder for the first time in about... 9 months or so. And for that, I'm really grateful. You never really know how much someone may mean to you until they're off somewhere far away. Sarah's a good friend... and I care about her.

I think the whole theme of the trip, though, was determined right from the start. We had just gotten on the interstate when we came across an accident over in the northbound lanes. It had apparently happened just a few minutes before given the (relatively short) line of traffic backed up behind the incident. What was scary was seeing one car just completely engulfed in flames. Everyone just sorta sat there quiet and watched the vehicle burn as we went past it. Definitely put a somber mood on the whole occasion.

At least, though, I have one week left before spring break... and boy can I not wait. It'll be time to sleep in... and be productive on my own time. Get caught back up too. But first I have to survive this week, and who really knows how long this'll take?

I would write oodles more, but I'm tired (thank you Big 10 for scheduling the game at NOON!) and I really would like sleep. So... catch ya all on the flip side!

--Ryan out

(PS - I'm really happy... Crash won Best Picture tonight. When I went to see it this summer with Casey and Lauren, I was absolutely stunned, and then I rated it in my top 5 films that I had ever seen. Apparently the Academy agrees with me. Yay for them. =)

I Will Survive

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 04:04:45 GMT

Believe me when I say that I'm barely surviving here... just so many things to do and I don't have time to do practically any of them.

But I think I can survive.

The End of a ChapterKelly Clarkson - Because Of You

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 05:20:08 GMT

The exactly 4 month saga is complete now. I'm really not going to go into specifics on here (not only would it probably take a while, it wouldn't be fair to her). But basically we've decided to go our separate ways.... not that we were ever on the same path to begin with. We both made some mistakes this weekend (I definitely more than her)... and we really can't do much to salvage anything out of it. So... we go on in life.

And I'm happy. Happy that we could resolve something. Happy that we could pull out at least a mutual... respect for one another.

But now it's time to move on in life... and write another chapter. I just hope and pray to God that this chapter doesn't turn into a novel of some sort like this one seemed to do.

Lyndsie--if you ever read this.... thank you.

--Ryan out